I just gave him a blow job :/ and I feel like shit.

Me and Dan [not boyfriend and girlfriend, but I really like him]
yesterday we went to the bush, and made out, it was nice and I feel great..
Today...We went to the beach, he wanted to go up top so I followed
I ended up giving him a blow job and I feel like shit, I thought he was going to ask me out or something but hes all like "no where just friends." then after I sucked his cum off WHICH does not taste good may I add, he told me to never tell anyone about the subject and he started calling me an idiot :/
I really don't understand, I thought maybe yesterday in the bush.. He liked me..
Maybe not :/