She was talking about me again.
Usually, I don't mind when people talk about me, it's just normal. But it's when Katie does it...in front of me too.
It hurts.
I ws just walking into The Corner and she was walking towards me. She turned right on her heel and walked towards Chole and her friends, the old hardcore Year 11's. I thought nothing of it so went with Kiya and sat on the bench. Katie was standing by the other bench and I heard her say something-exactly what it said on that text she sent me, basically saying that she was with someone.
Then they all burst out laughing.
I asked Kiya if we could go for a walk and she didn't catch on in time, so I walked off and waited for her to catch up. Then I almost threw up in the gutter.
Katie and I used to be great friends. It didn't matter that she was two years older than me. She helped me through a messy break up and we had a great time. She phoned me when she was at a YouMeAtSix concert four times.
I loved her.
And she's not talking to me, or she's talking about me, or she's calling me names. She's taking advantage on me. She knows I've got a low self-esteem and a broken soul and she's just ripping apart the healings over the scars on my heart and killing me.
On purpose too.
Is it me? Am I truly that repulsive? I know people have a problem with me but I'm starting to consider now that I'm just not good enough, I'm just worthless. They all say it would be better if I wasn't here at all and now I think that too.
I feel....like I'd be better off somewhere else.
Another world, the other side of the mirror, the world I dream off, where everybody will take me for who I am and they won't hurt me.
I'm really emotionl at the moment.
Hanging Betty
xxxxx
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