i want to....

die.....I hate myself.......................
I'm trying not to kill myself.....I wanna die so bad.......I hate life.........I just wanna cut so deep and bleed to death or something.......I wish that life is pointless.......I cut the day before yesterday......I was so stressed and worried and I couldn't sleep....I don't think anyone really cares about me anymore....people act like they care but I don't think they do.......I don't think people really care I wish I don't wake up every morning....

By the way,

I need a guitarist and a drummer....from the band I'm in we are called N9NE Lives..