I have feelings too

A lot of people have been saying that I'm always distant and cold.

They say I'm difficult and that I push people away.

I admit, sometimes I do but who am I to blame?

I remember what my aunt told me when I was six years old.

She said all of my relatives wanted to strangle me.

She told me that again awhile ago.

She said that if ever she had a kid like me, she would abort it.

I kept neutral but it hurt. I know I can be emotionless at times but I have feelings too.

I find it hard to share my emotions to people I know.

I can do it here cause none of you can see my face right now.

I don;t have to look you in the eye and say what I feel like.

I know I hardly show emotion cause it's hard but that doesn;t mean I'm numb and cold

I have feelings too you know