Twitching, twisted, spiritless and out of context, beyond alone.

I think I'm writing this for my own sanity.

Hell, I don't even know where to begin. I'm at this stage in my life where I just don't want to continue living. Everything is just so hopeless. I have this horrible sinking feeling inside and it's constant and sharp. Every aspect of my life has seemed to fail. I lack the energy and motivation to do anything. The simplist daily tasks seem so impossible. I can't even find the energy to have a normal conversation with anyone.

I feel so secluded from the world because of this state of being. It's like everyone keeps moving, but I'm stuck in this black hole. It just wont go away. I just want out. I want my life back.

This depression had made me completely let myself go. Nothing matters anymore. My appearance has completely gone to shit along with my relationships. I just don't want to live anymore, yet I don't want to die. I don't want to be here, yet I don't want to be there. Is like an uncomfortable in between.

I'm lost and ready to give up. I just don't know anymore.