My nightmare

LIfe has been getting pretty hard recently
My grandfather is in the hostipal, i dont know what to do about that *sighs*
I have the opprunity to make the one person that makes my life hell go away
but i dont have the nerve to stand up for myself because i wanna protect my lil brothers.
I dont want them to suffer like i have.
A long lost friend has come back into my life.
But it is so weird to talk to him, its like i dont know him
I love someone but i like someone else and it just doesnt work out
I just dont know what to do
anyone wanna help?