sad day...

so my grandma just died...

Necrophobia: an abnormal fear of dead bodies....

that's what I have...

I walked past her room and she was just laying there...dead and pale and her mouth was open and I past out...But i'm okay now...obviously....but she is still in there! And it is really really really really scaring me...and I don't know what to do....so I made cookies...but I wasn't thinking right and I put baking POWDER instead of baking SODA...and they came out all weird...they still taste fine though...

and now I'm rambling because I'm scared shitless and my own fucking room is right next to hers and it is really creepy and I can't even walk past her room without almost passing out again...

god how am I going to fucking SLEEP tonight?!