questionable loyalty

here loyalty isn't played out
it doesn't mean anything

but it does to me
and it breaks my heart

don't make me doubt the fact that we're "best friends"
this is one of the reasons why i don't trust people
why i'm such a cold bitch sometimes
its cause i know that someone will fuck me over
they always do

so there's my explanation
i'm tired of being disappointed in people
aren't you?
i mean i know i know its high school and you won't really stay in touch
but it would be nice to know that someone has your back at all times

well fuck that
i'm not going to get that here

i had one person who i could do that with
and he's not here anymore
and its killing me a little everyday