So I went back to the doctors today to get more blood tests done. I guess my chemo isn't working, and I don't know if I wanna keep on trying. If I do keep on doing it, then I'll most likely spend the rest of my life sick and in pain, and if I don't continue doing it, I'll die, but I won't be in as much pain. I don't really know what to do. I don't wanna keep living like this. I'm 14 years old, and I'm dying from leukimia. People are always asking me how I feel. They want to here that I'm doing good, but how can I lie to them. Am I just supossed to say "Pretty shitty, thanks"? That's not what anyone want's to here.
So here I am, trying to decide if I basically want to keep living or not. Is that seriously what my life has come to?
Guess so.
So, how's everyone doing?
How about dying for a change?
May 31st, 2008 at 07:32pm