I feel like....

crap.
people only pretend to like me.
I'll never get to where I want to be.
I'll be stuck in Louisiana forever.
I'll never be whole.
sleeping.
I'll be searching for something for the rest of my life.
things will never be the same.
I'll never get you.
an idiot.
dying my hair.
skipping class.
going shopping.
shooting something.
seeing him.
I'm losing.
I'll never get a grip on reality.

I'm lost