It still hurts...

Wow. I wish it wasn't so hard to deal with my cousin passing away 5 months ago. I mean, I really loved her. I was just so close to her. And I wont get to see her on New Years nd Christmas. It was all okay until my friend's dad passed away Sunday. He started spillin his guts to me and I just couldn't take it. I know exactly how he feels. It felt like I lost a sister. But she's watchin my back. But the only hard part is people are like "Wow, you sure do miss her a lot." and i just want to be like "No shit!"