Blowing off steam

You guys don't really know much about me. Few people do. I have had a lot to handle lately. I think I fell in love. With who I won't say because nobody knows the truth. My best friend is always there. But I doubt if she really knows. I know she will probably read this sooner or later but I don't really care. She loves me and she won't mind my pain. She has always been there for me. You know who you are. But I have some things I just cannot handle. I mean who really cares who I love. All that matters is that I love someone whose amazing... right? Everyone makes such a fuss. Why do you care? It doesn't affect others who I love. Only me. You don't think dealing with the heartbreaks is enough without your judgement. Yeah, that's what I thought. They don't know a thing about me. They don't know a thing about what I've felt. Or even worse, what I've done.