I'm so confused, I'm scared and I need Help.

Writing at: 3:18 AM

Exams today. That's not why I need help. I have a crush on this guy. He's the same age as me. This other guy has a crush on me. He's 5 years older than me. I think I kinda like him too, and it would be fine, if there weren't several problems.

The difference in our ages. He is five years older. Not one or two years, five.

I've never been in a relationship before. I'm not ready for a relationship with him.

I still have a crush on the guy my age.

I kinda wanted to go out with someone my own age first.

I don't think he's the only one with a crush on me.

And I'm not really mature enough. I don't mean physically, but I'm practically still a kid!

Any one of the problems alone could be ok, but, he's so much older than me. If anything happens, it could be considered rape. I'm so afraid. I'm losing sleep and I'm going to sleep right through exams! Just thinking about this makes me feel sick to my stomach. He says he'll wait for me, but I don't want to be so cruel, I hope he finds someone else.