6/28/08

Nate dissapeard. Off the face of the Earth.
I was afraid to lose Josh. That's why I did the things I did. To keep him.
-Then I cried myself to sleep.
I tried to tell Nate that he was the only one that could help me.
What did I expect.
I tried to tell Josh I didn't want to. That it hurt.
What did I expect.

I have given up on them both. They are gone.

It is amazing. Like how an ant can carry hundreds of times it's body weight on it's back. How a mother can pick a car off her child. How I could acctually do it. Like a bandaid. Though even when you rip the bandaid it rips back.