2008.06.28

I feel bad. =[

I didn't go to the movies with my friend or play cards with her...

My excuse?

I didn't want to change out of my pajamas... XD

Ok, well I didn't tell her that, but that's my real excuse. Even though I'm probably going to have to anyways since I'm possibly going to get that dress today. *sigh*

Sometimes I'm a terrible person.

I keep thinking about going to homecoming alone. =/ I know it's months away, but because of the possibility of getting that dress, it's on my mind. And I'm really bothered about my situation with Josh, so I don't know what I'm going to do. I hate being confused. I wish everything was clear cut. I wish I could jump into time and see what life would be like for me 20 years from now if I stay with Josh or if I didn't. Wouldn't that make things easier? I think so. I think, if I stay with him, curiosity will always be in the back of my mind. But if I leave, and I don't find anything better [which I don't think I would] then that will always be the biggest regret of my life. And then I start thinking about going to homecoming alone. =[

URGH!

I hate life.

Hm... I love Journals. It's kind of like a diary. I put all my daily ramblings in here and that means I don't have to bother other people that I actually talk to with my problems. ^_^ It's great. Though I don't know how much longer I'm going to keep up this daily Journal thing. Maybe change it to once a week. Hehe... those would be reeeeeally long. =P

<3 steph

Edit: Here's a picture of it on the designer website:
http://www.jessicamcclintock.com/wcsstore/jmcstore1/IMAGES/32484F.JPG