Lonelyness

Lately i dont really know....I've been feeling lonely and sad, and I dont know why. I mean I should be happy really i got a wonderful guy, great friends, and yet i still feel like something is missing. But i really dont know what.

I try to keep myself busy, it works then again I get sad and lonely. Sometimes I feel like I really dont belong anywhere and I feel like my friends ignore me. I'm hoping its just a phase but....it sure isnt moving fast enough.

Maybe I'll be better when School starts...but even there I feel like I dont belong. Most of the time I feel like my friends are always happy and i'm like i dont know not happy much. Usually I tried to hide it but its mostly works and doesnt.

I guess i'm confused i dont know...i'm just worried i'll begin to cut my hand up again or just start all over again. *sighs* Or worse go into my suicide mode again. I know i need help. But you know me i wont go get help.

Please read and Comment..I really do appericate you views.