He left her waiting...

i wrap my arms around myself. tightly so i cannot breathe. i am cold, always so cold, always so still. as if my heart has given up at last and will never beat again. never hear his whisper. never hear his wings unfold. sitting in this silence, i am alone and waiting. so alone that even i have abandoned myself long ago. what remains there, all chained up and bleeding is a shell.empty. only a memory of what i once was. only a shadow when once there was a soul.but the shadow is so dark, it fades into the blackness until there is no difference at all from shadow to air. until they are one. blackness upon black. all waiting for him to return to the promise he left behind. long forgotten like the dust on the floor, the mould in the corner, the blood on her skin.maybe one day he will face up to what she has become, what he has become. one day in all eternity. until then she must wait, frozen in time and frozen in fear of what's to come, or maybe she fears what's not to come. her mind is undecided with hours of though and days more. what does she fear most? his monster or a death that will never approach?