My life as of now

Is a rollercoaster.
Good and bad things.
I never thought i would be comfortable enough to post this stuff on Mibba for everyone to see.
But the good things first.
I couldnt be happier with the way my living conditions are going at the moments and my friendships are stronger then ever.
On the minus, My best friend for like four or five years now has lung cancer and isnt going to do anything about it. Tell me thats fair.
He said that the only thing he wants to do before he dies (which he most likely will) Is just make sure I'm happy. How can I be when he is going to die?
He laughed when I told him that he is one of my heroes but i dont see whats so funny.
Sure hes made some mistakes and done some things he isnt proud of, but who hasnt?
I could always count on him to be there to protect me from anything that threatened me.
He has told me that i am one of the strongest people of the group because i didnt cry when i found out.
It hasnt really hit me and it wont for a while.