Old Rant #4 - Apologies

You say it’s okay and make-ups are all done, but if you think about it, the feeling you had of disappointment or anger will never be forgotten even as remorse or happiness comes soon after, because there is no time machine, just words and discoveries that coax us and make us think we changed the past – but I know the truth and how you feel because I am brilliant or maybe just a fool- I see all and feel all and I know all but this gift is not a gift. It is a curse that clogs my brain with overwhelming ideas and thoughts that seem too much for my feeble soul and everyday I either get stronger or I get more beat down, ready to quit, but which one of these happens- I do not know.