just asking.

do your ever feel alone?
like no one ever hears what you say?
or how you supposedly have SO MANY friends and only like 2 of them ever call you to see how you are?
and when you call your "friend's" houses they see it's you and they just let it ring?
do you ever feel like there is no one to talk to?
or that everytime you turn around someone died or left you without any explanation.
and you always somehow think it's your fault?
i hate having no one to talk to.
i cant talk to my mom or my sister b/c they dont listen to me, i cant talk to my dad b/c he doesnt see me anymore, i cant talk to my grandma b/c she'll tell everything i say to every member or the family and my other grandma is dying from colen cancer so she has enough problems of her own, my school guidance couselor (sp) doesnt really listen to anything i say , and most of my friends only listen to me until their best friend comes around or something, really i have no one to talk to and all of it is just bottling up inside of me and i dont know what to do with it b/c it all keeps coming out like anger and i keep getting myself in trouble b/c of my anger. :'|