just some way

I need some way to clear my mind.

It's almost like I'm freakign out; I don't know what to do.

I fear I'm going down a slope again.

You know; that slope.

That slope.

The one where everything I do--Everything I try to do--Just doesn't work out.

I need to clear my mind.

I grabed my sketch pad.

I can't think of anything to draw. Nothing is comming out the way it should.

I tried to clear my mind but i couldn't.

I have all these unnecessary thoughts swimming around my head.

Taking up space.

I tried to put music on.

...

It just didn't help.

Music always helps. I can always clear my mind with it. I just play my music and let my mind go blank. I grab at the words and absorb them. Them and the sounds that play around them.

I tried last night.

It didn't work. I couldn't concentrate.

I thought when I woke up it would be better.

It's not.