Empty.

I need to fill myself up and get back to how I used to be. I need to be happier, healthier, and a better person. I may not be with him anymore, but I cannot just sit around and mope. He's definitely not doing the same thing, I know he's out partying, drinking, so on. So why should I be the one to hurt? I can't rely on anyone anymore. Everyone that said they would be there are gone or busy. It's summer, but I miss everyone and lately since he left, it feels like everyone else did too. Instead of listening to stupid excuses like, he got bored or there was fighting, it all means the same thing. I wish I knew what I did, but I'm just feeling even worse every time I think about him.

I need to get him out of my mind and move on. It's going to take me awhile to heal. I already deleted pictures, and I'm starting to not talk to him. Each day it's going to be something different and better.

I just hope friends will be there for me. Yet I need to figure out what I can do to make myself happy. I don't wanna be confused anymore or upset.