My Mom Just Passed Away

Yes.
I found out yesterday.
Please people I don't need fake sympathy right now.
I got enough of that already.

I just wanted to post this so people won't think I'm ignoring them and why I haven't updated or anything.

I'm stuck with family members I despise right now so excuse me if I'm bitchy.

You see my dad;s side of the family never liked my mom.
They were always mean and rude to her and they never thought she was good enough for my dad.

I think it should be the opposite way but oh well.

They're over here right now and I'm furious!
After all these years they choose now to care?
No.
I don't buy it.
They're probably over here for vacation time (I live in Vegas and they live in California).
They're pissing me off some much.

then I called one of my friends Connie to tell her what happened because she was one of the only friends that have met my mother.

I guess she old this one girl named Amberly(she's also my friend but I don't like her very much)
And Amberly won't leave me alone!
She kept calling me asking me if I was okay.
Now I know you're probably wondering isn't that a good thing?

I can tell you two easy reasons why it's not.
One she's not being caring,she's being nosy.
And she wans to seem like she's nice but I know how she is.

Two I hate the question 'are you okay?' it's probably the worlds most retarded question.
No i'm not okay my mother just died do you actually think I'm fucking happy?
Yeah,rainbows are shooting out of my ass.

I don't want to be reminded that i will never see her again okay?
And that's all you're doing if you ask that question.

I'm not a suicidal person,never have been never will be.
i know it's normal to be sad .
I'm not stupid.
it just hasn't sunk in yet and when it does then i will be a mess,but until then i'm just numb and sad.

Oh and to make things worse fucking Amberly is going around and telling people!
I mean come on now,If I wanted people to know I would have told them!
Fucking stupid.
And she wonders why I didn't call her.

I don't know whats happening or what I'm going to do.

Guys you have to understand,I don't have an Alex or Gerard to come wipe away my tears.

This isn't a story and
I don't have the loving best friend that understand.

I only have the friends that pretend they care.
They act like they're sad for me but really they're just glad it wasn't them.

And if anyone thinks I'm making this shit up you're fucking sick and twisted.

lease please please don't comment and say you were sorry.
I know it's the right thing to dobut please don't.

Like I said,I don't need fake sympathy.

Thanks for reading this,it let's me know that Mibbians are good people.