Somethings not right... *sighs*

Here we go again. A tragic story. (thats a tad dramatic) And I know how it'll end...

JULY 31 2008

Me liking this person is seriously starting to screw up my head. Every since day one, when I first saw him at uniform fittings, (lame, I know...) he's been in my head, and I haven't been able to think straight. It's driving me nuts. {He's driving me crazy.}

Yeah, That's how it is..

I dont think he knows I like him.
I mean, he should. Im always staring at him.
And I never look away until he looks at me . Because I'm scared that if he sees me, he'll know I like him.
(again, as if it weren't obvious)

The worst part, is that every time this happens to me, the person finds out i like them, and then chances are, I have no chance...
But for some reason... this seems different.
I'm only 14, I'm only a freshman. I know its no different..
Sooner or later, someone else will strike my eye.
But y'know what? That happened yet.
There's 2 other guys at marching band, that started out just as strong as him, but I've shut them out. Now it's just him.
And I'm scared about it. I know he doesnt like me. ( I mean, C'mon!)
But Im just not backing away for some reason.

The worst part, is that two of my friends have told me he's a jerk, but Im just so optimistic. I'm telling myself he's changed. Well, if he hasn't, then I'll learn from my own mistakes. If he has, good call.

(Wanna know what's sad? I've never talked to him before. As much as I'd like too, I'm too much of a wuss when it comes to this kinda thing)

((What's sadder? I'm talking like I've got chances... I'm not good enough))

Haha.. I remember one day, I was just fixated on him, and My section leader told us something, and noticed i was in a whole 'nother world. She asked me a question about what she said, and I got it wrong. XD good times...

August 9th 2008

So why's it still bothering me??