SO I hate the fact that I love him...yes love..

I cant belive that I'm falling hard for one of my friends that already is happy with his boyfriend. WHAT!Did me confessing that I liked you wasnt enough!I told all my friends that I should have never told him but ...it did feel nice knowing that he liked me too..but apparently not enought to ask me out and be with me.yeah I guess I sound selfish but I cant help it!He's everything I see in a guy and he dosnt see me in that way.I hate my life.my friends tell me that love will find me.But I dont think I wanna wait for it to come.I'm happy for him seeing as his last relationship didnt go over so well.And I hope that his new BF treats him right.I dont think I can bear to see him cry agian.