This is hard...

I found out one of my friends died today.

And it's hard you know?

I'm kind of stunned right now.

I dunno what to feel really.

I'm not crying...I have a small lump,but no tears.

It kind of came out of no where.

He was such a crazy, funny, and completely rude guy, but he was so sweet.

A couple of years ago, I will never forget it, we were dating at that time and he wanted to dress up for halloween as a girl, so i let him wear my skirt, my edward scissorhands shirt, and he let me do his hair.

We all teased him about his big butt and went along with it.

It's kind of weird to know that I won't be seeing him do those things anymore, being the funny and honery guy he was.

I don't even really know why I'm posting this journal, it's not for pity or comfort I know that....but maybe it's for...I dunno, maybe because acknowledging it will help it sink in?