I love Rob.

I dont know what im going to do now. he has to leave and i love him so much. i was so so happy but now i cant even see past tomorrow. i need to see him so badly before he goes, i wont se him for months after he is gone. fuck. i want to cut and smoke and drink and do every drug until i cant take it anymore, but i promised. i HAVE to keep my promise, i cant break it again. i am crying and i just cant stop, i dont want to stop, i miss him already. It will be so hard with him so far away with all those gurls all over him and me not being able to do anything about it. fuck.
i just want to die.
i just want to be with him and for him to still take the courses he NEEDS to have a life he wants. i want this to work.
i love him too much to see him go, but i will NOT be the reason he fails in life.
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----I love R. B. M --------