The Many masks of me

If you know me this was the tittle of my solo show but I think its more like the story of my life.
I always think I am happy but then the loneliness creeps up on me and grips my heart. It causes so much pain I am surprised I don't scream out in pain. If you see me grip my chest now you know why.

I try to smile and distract myself but at the end of the day the pain always comes back. I don't know why, I don't even know why I get so sad. I don't where the pain comes from. I am so lost, I feel like like a ghost. Intangible floating on through watching my body act on its own.

I want the pain to go away. i want to smile and not have to think about the pain coming back at night,. i want to be free of the many masks of me.