Depressing Party

So I went to a party last night. It was fun, sort of. Everyone else had fun and in all rights it was a great party. I just, I don't know. I was just upset. I guess seeing everyone before school reminded me of future drama and past drama and dumb, stupid, worthless boys. It's just like, you think you're over someone and you're not. That's a real blow to the mind. It makes you wonder and not in a leisurely pondering kind of way.
The girl has a crazy amazing house. It's so cool. It's an old farmhouse but is huge. I love it. The architecture is amazing. And it's in the richer district of our town so there was a pool and a volleyball court and a basketball court and a bonfire and a campfire. There was so much cool stuff. And I really wish I could have enjoyed it more than I did.