boys, and phones, and even more boys...OH MY!

Okay so i used to always talk about Jordan but he's making me so angry
he jokes around but it sounds like he's being serious so then i get hurt and he gets mad cause i was offended and then when i joke he says i do the same thing and starts screaming at me...it's dumb and makes me so mad...don't get me wrong i still love the boy to death but i just need a little break from him for now...he's driving me insane and Katt keeps telling me to call him and say i'm not mad at him but when i hear his voice i really can't be mad and i can't tell him what's really bugging me...man i can't wait until he gets text...i will make things so much easier lol

well for now i can't text...my phone was taken by my mother...i'm slowly going insane because of lack of communication...bleh i especially want to talk to David...he's so...David lol

okay i know that all of you(minus one...my lova katie lol) have no idea what i'm talking about so...here goes:

David...i've had a crush on him since i met him last year...me, the lowly freshman sitting with two seniors, two freshman and David...who was amazing in every way possible...of course

so nothing really happened...amy(a really good friend) liked him too so i backed off...cause that's what i do but you know what...i'm sick of backing off...she never backs off for me and mer doesn't either(another really good friend) they always just steal guys right out from under me(well, not literally...lol usually...jk) so i give up on that being the nice one because we always end up liking the same guys...bleh

so back to David lol well he's smart and funny and amazing and all i think about lol i just can't help it...one hug from him and my stomach lurches, my speech gets all blah, and i get all tingly tehe...i see him between every class and that makes it so hard to learn, especially in geometry because when coach everett starts teaching my head floats off into space thinking about David...Cory(who sits behinds me and has a really big crush on me) will randomly poke me and my bubble is quickly burst and i return to reality(much to the enjoyment of the people sitting around me because apparently it's hilarious when people annoy me)

another thing and then i guess i'll stop for today:
somehow i've become "hot" or something...i used to go forever between guys and ugly ones at that but, lately i've been hanging out with really great guys and they actually like me...it's confusing i mean guys are coming up to me and i've never had this stuff happen i mean i usually see a guy(and learn everything about him) before he notices me lol
i was asked out by two different guys this weekend...it's crazy...i told them i suck at relationships(which is true) and i'm taking a break from them to think for a while(also true i've been thinking about how much i suck at them a lot since my last break-up which was last wednesday) maybe one of you could help me...i'd love you forever lol