Its Easy To Blame Her..

I've come to the realization that I hate my mother more than I have the right to.

Yes, she was a drugged up drunk and abandoned my brothers, sister and I and, yes, that is a reason in itself to hate her but she is my mother. Its normal to feel some kind of love for her still, isn't it?

Well, I don't. I honestly don't.

I think I hate her so much because it makes me feel less guilty for leaving my siblings in Colorado for a better life with my father. I've abandoned them just like she did. Its easy to place the blame on someone else.

I'm the biggest hypocrite I know. But is it such an awful thing? Can any one of you blame me for it?