Sorry. >.<

I do feel guilty. I might have pursued on that wrong decision which had hurt you without even thinking twice. I'm not perfect. I rant. I scream. I judge. I'm a hypocrite in a way. I make mistakes. I get hurt.

And... people are hurt because of me, too.

And whether my mistake was big or small, I still find it hard to say it... 'sorry'.

I didn't do it on purpose and I never wanted to do that. And you know what? I just realized it was my weakness. It was a weakness that resulted from a million other weaknesses.

My insecurities + paranoia + lack of self-confidence...

I tend to be too observant of other people, especially with people who are special to me.
I tend to see everything other people have that I don't, so I get paranoid you'll leave me when you realize I'm not as good as they are.

That was always how it was. I've always wanted to get over this, but I can't. I'm trying. But I haven't achieved yet.

I'm sorry you had to suffer because of the freaking weakness I can't overcome. I'm sorry it always had to be you.