Its hard to say (letter)

so i really want to write Dustin a letter explaining how i feel
but i dont know how i feel
its wierd
heres what i have so far:

Dustin,
Its hard to say how i feel about things, but i'm going to try and do it this time. i love you, and i wish i didnt but i wouldnt change it for the world. I miss you everyday and i crave to be with you. But I know it would be forst. Thats not what i want. I wished for mounths after we broke up that it was a joke. But i knew better. I am better now, i'm trying so hard to move on, but even the simplest memory hurts me. So I feel like crap for trying to get something back that I have already lost, so I'm sorry. I know i mean nothing to you, but i am well. I would love to be your friend again, but i understand if thats not posible. maybe oneday we can meet up, and laugh about this, but for now, i hope you the best. I miss you.
Thats kinda all i had to say, so messege me sometime, maybe?
Haha
So i'l see you around
-Peek-A-Boo
-Rachael
-Missy
-Love
-Me