nothing is really beautiful in this world. nothing is sacred. everything we know, or touch, has been sullied, one time or another, in another mind, another city, another sea. what we think is pure has already been twisted, though we may not know it yet. i do not think many of us care, though. it is far too much trouble to worry about whether art must only be pretty, or ugly. we only know what we love, and sometimes we don't even know that at all.
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capitals and doilies
i made a city fall in love with me once. only one name, only two pairs of eyes. ten fingers, each of them wrapped around a key. just a single face among many, among thousands, but she has skyline lights on her shoulderblades. on her hair bluebirds nest, and their eggs are her pearldrop earrings. her smile is a landmark and i wished to be photographed next to it, remember it forever on my bedside. she came to me sometimes late, sometimes early, sometimes on time, always loud and bustling. her dancing knew no night, as life always began in the mornings. but she sold herself to someone else, as cities often do, and i had to let her go.
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when i lay dying of the plague my vision was only of two things: blackness, and you. i assumed you took the place of the light, though you probably had little right to do so. but you did its job just the same. you held my hand and whispered that it was all right leave, at least for the time being. i wondered if the light was paying you to fill in for its shift because sometimes your fingers tightened when they smoothed over my hair, and you were never supposed to hold on. i coughed up water without worry because i would not have to clean it up, though i fretted a little that someone might slip over the puddles they created. i would have trusted you to wipe it up if you were not doing such a shoddy job of ushering me into the next life. it was time for me to go, my darling, i hoped you would have at least believed me. you believed me even when you did not have to.
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you slithered through my ear, a worm in my brain who turned my insides into a puree until you became i and all of me.
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sometimes you tasted like cherries, sometimes of mint. sometimes nothing but dry human sweat. sometimes you felt like leather and of oil, whether or not i touched you first. you always loved me, and sometimes that was not enough.
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it was near the afternoon when you yawned like you wanted to go back to sleep. the sheets looked so crumpled and inviting, and so did your face, lazy smile like cheap white wine. if i were to want breakfast i would have had to make it myself, and neither of us had brushed our teeth yet but i leant down for a kiss. your tongue was like the sun, and it woke me up and begged me to stay.
i headed for the shower, then took the bus to work. it was a cloudy day.
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i am very sick. maybe i am dying. mostly, i am still living.
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you gave me a silver ring, for silver linings; maybe you just couldn't afford the gold.
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it was a modern city but we had the oldest love.
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i cry in all sorts of digusting ways (snotting and huffing and reddening) but you love even uglier.
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the coat you gave me was missing all its buttons, those of which you wore on a string around your neck. i still wore it when it shrank in the wash, and their indentations and their four eyes where still on your skin when you lost them on the subway. when we die i hope my coat goes to a little boy who will fall in love with a girl who holds onto one of your buttons as if it were a pearl.
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braille doesnt work anymore i hope this makles it to you and yuou understand it. i cannoy dread the ythingfs i am saying, i cannot repat them after i am done typiung. i M ENTIRWELY ALONE in thw worlds woitjput evben a pair of eyes to fuide me, to make sure this leter finds its way home. i do hope i havent run out of inkl. i lobre yupoi,. more than two ghoods eyes can see
;?(shit i gorgot twhre i put my stamp)s
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fetus/placenta
i drowned in my dream and i woke up in water
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eve/adam
you took out one of my ribs so i could breathe
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dilating eyes, blinking eyes, fluttering eyes. you saw me a lullabye
it was floating in the sea
you unbottled a song
you swallowed the cork
and built a note boat for me
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i long for the day i stumble upon a castle with my sword and white steed
to find that the dragon's been slain and another prince waiting for me
hopefully his crown won't be bigger than mine
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he kisses her back and steals her breath through her spine, a firework bruising his lips. he spits it into the air and he imagines her skull full of flowers
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i cried every day you weren't here, and then some
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my goldfish has a replica of the tower of babel in his bowl and he talks to me in french which i do not understand
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you flatlined, but i was the one who died
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אני אוהבת אותך ירושלים