Eating Disorders.

I've had a problem with my weight ever since I started high school. With everyone there and being a lot thinner than I was, it just brought me down to a whole new level of thinking.
I had a friend who repeated called herself fat, when she was 5'8" and a hundred and ten pounds, which was what I weighed and I'm only 5'1". She kept on comparing herself to me, claiming that I was much skinnier than she was. I don't know what happened, but I freaked out. I started hating myself and throwing up everything I ate because it felt horrible being inside my body.
Though I've lost about eighteen pounds (from purging and a hospital trip), I still can't get the idea of myself being 'too fat' out of my head. |:

jeph.:

I've had a problem with my weight ever since I started high school. With everyone there and being a lot thinner than I was, it just brought me down to a whole new level of thinking.
I had a friend who repeated called herself fat, when she was 5'8" and a hundred and ten pounds, which was what I weighed and I'm only 5'1". She kept on comparing herself to me, claiming that I was much skinnier than she was. I don't know what happened, but I freaked out. I started hating myself and throwing up everything I ate because it felt horrible being inside my body.
Though I've lost about eighteen pounds (from purging and a hospital trip), I still can't get the idea of myself being 'too fat' out of my head. |:

I don't like it when people do that because. It's like this thought process that seems to be drummed into women through the media etc. We can't ever seem to be satisfied with our bodies unless it's perfect like what we want it to be, even if we're perfectly healthy. It really doesn't assist with the desire that women have to be beauty & to be pursued, then we're constantly told that we have to be this & that to be beautiful. Though many of us know it's not true, we can't help but subconsciously fall for it, because truth be told, humans are insecure. Something society abuses severely too.

I'm sorry to hear this has happened; see a psychologist might help in assisting with these thoughts. I'm here if you ever need it too. :arms:

I don't eat much during the summer. The only thing I eat are Nutri-grains in the morning and some meal in the afternoon, but that's it.

Normally, I eat breakfast, lunch, dinner and a meal...so I don't know :|

It's really sad to me that there are a lot of people who "think that they have an eating disorder", but I can almost guarantee that these same people have never even considered it before the day that their eyes lay upon the topic. Once somebody finds a new problem, everybody becomes vulnerable, and everybody hates themselves, etc.

I think that the main problem behind many teens is that they are attention-hungry. Now when it comes to true eating disorders, things can be tough. I think that the people on here who have actually struggled understand why it hurts to see all these people who don't know whether or not they have a disorder.

I've struggled off and on for about three years now. I have varied between a very odd combination of a Binge Eating Disorder and Anorexia. Seems strange, I know. But I get really vulnerable, and I either want to force myself to starve or comfort myself with food. Lately anorexia has dominated, and it doesn't soubt me that I'll be stuck in this for the next few years. Once you start, you can't stop.

^Exactly.
There's a difference between a period of disordered eating and an actual eating disorder, which people often misunderstand.

Eating disorders aren't something you go through a phase of for a few months, then recover from; that's disordered eating, which you then realise is ridiculous and stop.

They're something which dominate your life and don't just go away, no matter how much you want it to.

You've got it. But most people haven't quite understood the way it works. There are people out there who assume the worst when little things happen, rather than stopping and thinking, "Hmm... I've gone one day of my life without eating. Am I anorexic?"

That's not the way that it works, and it drives me insane when people take for granted what they really have. And I hate all of those pro-ana/mia sites. I mean, in the past, they helped me fit in and feel like I wasn't alone in my ED, but they are intent upon making Eating Disorders look like a diet or a lifestyles rather than a disorder. They want people to think that EDs are okay, but they aren't. If you have one, you should certainly not sit back. Seek help.

I mean, I guess I sound pretty hypocritical in saying that you should seek help when I refuse, but the only reason why I do this is becauseme, suffering physically to the point that I am right now, is much better than me, suffering in the ways that I would if my family and friends discovered that I did have problems.

^I understand what you mean.

I got "found out" if you like, dragged to a doctor and diagnosed, and now I've been forced into some kind of recovery. Physically, I'm doing better. I eat more, have put on weight and don't look so sick and tired all the time.

Mentally? I cannot stand myself. I hate getting up everyday and putting on clothes because I can just feel them getting tighter. I was happier when people didn't know and I was allowed to go on my own way without being noticed.

Thank you for the top four posts. They helped.

voice of the sun.:

Mentally? I cannot stand myself. I hate getting up everyday and putting on clothes because I can just feel them getting tighter. I was happier when people didn't know and I was allowed to go on my own way without being noticed.

Ever since my dad started to notice that my clothes were getting baggier and not fitting as well, he started to watch me eat more. Sure, I'd try and throw up most of it, but it's not the same since I got my tongue pierced and picked up smoking again. My throat just can't handle it anymore

I can feel my clothes getting tighter again and I don't like it. Not one bit. My legs look chunkier and I hate them. I can't physically stand infront of the mirror naked without picking out the flaws.


I wouldn't wish it upon anyone.

i personally dont have an eating problem, or so i think
i love food. alot. and for being only 130 pounds and 16 years old...and a girl, its pretty good for someone like me
but im going through hell and back, then back to hell right now, and i cant even force food down my throat. i dont know why, im hungry all the time. but i cant eat

My friend used to make herself puke. She's over that thankfully. :)

I used to be bulimic, but when I saw that it wasn't helping me, I turned anorexic. I actually stopped a few days ago because when I was at YFN, they released it from me spiritually, and now I'm not concerned about it anymore. But I do have a Compulsive Eating Disorder, and I hate it. I'll eat a lot whenever I see food, and then feel stupid because I wasn't the slightest bit hungry.

I used to not eat much at all during the school year. School gave me a good excuse not to eat. I would say that I ate after school and that I wasn't hungry because I ate lunch too, but I really only ate up to 300 calories a day and I usually skipped lunch. I would be monitoring what I ate now but since I became vegetarian my mother has been bitching about my diet and asking me what I have been eating everyday. I can't lie about it because of my sister and brother being here and actually seeing what I eat. I hate having to eat three solid meals a day because my mother will punish me if I don't. Looking in the mirror I feel disgusting even though I am about 109 pounds.

little king:

It's really sad to me that there are a lot of people who "think that they have an eating disorder", but I can almost guarantee that these same people have never even considered it before the day that their eyes lay upon the topic. Once somebody finds a new problem, everybody becomes vulnerable, and everybody hates themselves, etc.

I think that the main problem behind many teens is that they are attention-hungry. Now when it comes to true eating disorders, things can be tough. I think that the people on here who have actually struggled understand why it hurts to see all these people who don't know whether or not they have a disorder.

I've struggled off and on for about three years now. I have varied between a very odd combination of a Binge Eating Disorder and Anorexia. Seems strange, I know. But I get really vulnerable, and I either want to force myself to starve or comfort myself with food. Lately anorexia has dominated, and it doesn't soubt me that I'll be stuck in this for the next few years. Once you start, you can't stop.

It sounds better than it is really, anorexia... it conjures images of a slightly romantic and/or ever so glamourous nature, but switch right to the reality and...

I think they're a bit over-publicised, but the boring and not so pretty nature of eating disorders are pushed to the side in favour of more dramatic headlines, sometimes... like, it's not all that dramatic. A lot of your life is very monotonous, very boring, very... endless... oh God. Make it stop.

And yes, once you start - you can't stop... not with ease... it controls your life, you don't have much control over it.

:think: i'm not saying i have an eating disorder, but i am curious as to what is wrong with me mentally wise. i usually make myself throw up if i'm upset, or if my image of myself is warped beyond repair. but i don't do it on a regular basis. yet. i'm afraid that it's going to become a regular thing, and i don't know if i'm ok with that or not. it's just so easy and simple to make myself throw up when i need to, i don't think twice about it.

little king:

It's really sad to me that there are a lot of people who "think that they have an eating disorder", but I can almost guarantee that these same people have never even considered it before the day that their eyes lay upon the topic. Once somebody finds a new problem, everybody becomes vulnerable, and everybody hates themselves, etc.

I think that the main problem behind many teens is that they are attention-hungry. Now when it comes to true eating disorders, things can be tough. I think that the people on here who have actually struggled understand why it hurts to see all these people who don't know whether or not they have a disorder.

I've struggled off and on for about three years now. I have varied between a very odd combination of a Binge Eating Disorder and Anorexia. Seems strange, I know. But I get really vulnerable, and I either want to force myself to starve or comfort myself with food. Lately anorexia has dominated, and it doesn't soubt me that I'll be stuck in this for the next few years. Once you start, you can't stop.

Guilty as charged.
I went through a phase of disordered eating, and used to worry that it was getting close to an eating disorder.
But I was being a ridiculous worrywart. :file:

Papercut Skin:

I think most of us consider turning to it at one point. :shifty

Yeah, I think that too.

Because of my friends comparing themselves to me, saying I'm so skinny, blah blah blah, I've become A bulimic, and Anorexic.

Adam Lazzara.:

Because of my friends comparing themselves to me, saying I'm so skinny, blah blah blah, I've become A bulimic, and Anorexic.

You seem to be excited about it. :file: You need help, form a doctor. Because bragging about it isn't very cool.

^ How do you know how that sounded? When I read it, I thought it sounded like she was upset because of it. So, you can't really accuse her of being "excited about it." I very highly doubt she was bragging too. In future, ask before you assume or you could land yourself in a lot of trouble. I don't intend for this to be mean at all, I'm just letting you know.