Eating Disorders.

*spews about self*

This is very odd, but... I've missed my last two periods, which somewhat makes sense and somewhat doesn't. I have, in the past, gone for a long time without menstruating, but since the age of sixteen, it became like clockwork.

At sixteen, I went through a month or so of not seeing numbers higher than 85, so it's not solely weight-related. Yes, I have lost weight recently, and my BMI is below 17.5, but I'm attributing it to diet of calorie restriction verses constant purging... or something. There are points when I purged and did not menstruate, but my weight was extremely low. Calorie restriction in the past meant not seeing my period for three years.

Puking is better for my bones?
Erm, probably not, and after spending too much money on dental issues caused as a result, it's not something I wish to do twenty times a day ever again...

/throws out to mibba just because

... Of course, I could always be pregnant.

So, for the food-effed (and female) among us, any strange (or totally normal) correlations between food and monthly ovum release?

Ooh, actually, periods can be absent and eggs still released. Other way 'round, too.

I was reluctantly diagnosed with ED-NOS by my family doctor in the 10th grade but I did and still do fit the classifications for anorexia, restricting type (5'6, 95 lbs). Yeeeeeeah, self-imposed social isolation, it rocks.

bambie:

Yeeeeeeah, self-imposed social isolation, it rocks.

You said it perfectly.

My mother had anorexia when she was younger. I can still see that in her; she's always exercising and watching what she eats.

My sister still has bulimia. I'm not sure if my parents noticed when she was here last, but I could hear her go into the bathroom and turn the water on, but even so, if I was in bed, I could hear her puking (my bedroom is right next to the only bathroom).

I don't know what to say. I don't know how I can help her. She doesn't live around here, which makes it even harder.

And to be honest, I'm scared it's genetic. I've heard it's a mental disorder more than anything else, and my weight and how much I eat is constantly on my mind. I wonder if that's why I can never eat more than a certain amount in large meals. My parents think I just have a small stomach, but the nausea that comes over me when I eat even a bite too much scares me. I've been so close to forcing myself to puke just to get over it.

I've had anorexia since I was twelve. I wasn't ever diagnosed, honestly, even though I had to go to the doctor's, the hospital, and therapy, etc.

I never really stopped. I still skipped meals behind my mom's back but then I'd just binge and binge and gain weight. I swore to myself I'd never get involved with bulimia, so I never made myself throw up.

I'm pretty sure I've cracked, actually. I never got this involved; I count every calorie, I sleep most of the time, I go on websites just to find other people like me. I never wanted to 'recover', and I honestly never did and probably never will. I hate myself, how I look, everything. I compare myself to everyone, I look into the mirror and want to cry.

It's taking over, and as much as I'd like to say I want this to be over, I want to succeed even more.

click

I actually wrote that journal, than I noticed tis thread. i have nothing more to say.

oceanic:

I've had anorexia since I was twelve. I wasn't ever diagnosed, honestly, even though I had to go to the doctor's, the hospital, and therapy, etc.

I never really stopped. I still skipped meals behind my mom's back but then I'd just binge and binge and gain weight. I swore to myself I'd never get involved with bulimia, so I never made myself throw up.

I'm pretty sure I've cracked, actually. I never got this involved; I count every calorie, I sleep most of the time, I go on websites just to find other people like me. I never wanted to 'recover', and I honestly never did and probably never will. I hate myself, how I look, everything. I compare myself to everyone, I look into the mirror and want to cry.

It's taking over, and as much as I'd like to say I want this to be over, I want to succeed even more.

I'm the same - minus the hospital. It's never worked :/

The bulimia and anorexia is my life. As is...the cutting.

I hate me -_-

To anyone who has had Bulimia and gotten over it; I'd really like it if you could message me and talk to me and help me through somethings. Thank you.

I used to be on the verge of anorexia.

I'm slightly bulimic now, but not too bad.
I do take a lot of caffeine and I used to be
addicted to diet pills.

I'm eating much healthier though. Exercising too.

Two of my little cousins have pica quite severely.
(This means they are malnourished because they
eat objects without true caloric value. Paint chips, crayons,
etc. But they do not eat true food very often.)

I've got BDD. Possible. Which resluted in purging and going dsays without food. I've gotten better though. :)

I know I don't have an eating disorder but I do go through phases when I feel so disgusted with myself for eating more than a meal a day.
I went through a hard time over the past year or so and at different times for a few weeks I'd stop myself from eating just because it made me feel better. It was like I was doing something right if I didn't eat properly. I felt that if I could stop myself from eating then I'd stop comparing myself to other people and that there was something I could control about myself.

My sister Emma has bulimia, She's had it for over 5 years now, It's hard and I'm worried and stressed, can anyone help, I don't know what to do. It got better for a while but now it's bad again.

My cousin was bulimic throughout her entire Sophomore year. No one knew, like literally NO BODY knew. And she came out and told me this year and I told my parents who told her parents who got her help, because she has a lot of other problems on top of that. But I feel terrible for ratting on her. I just want her to get the help she needs though, you know?

dreamsforplans:

I know I don't have an eating disorder but I do go through phases when I feel so disgusted with myself for eating more than a meal a day.
I went through a hard time over the past year or so and at different times for a few weeks I'd stop myself from eating just because it made me feel better. It was like I was doing something right if I didn't eat properly. I felt that if I could stop myself from eating then I'd stop comparing myself to other people and that there was something I could control about myself.

I actually have been having the same problem. Lately, I've been finding that I need to make myself eat that one meal a day, and even so, it's not always "normal" sized. I'm petrified of eating anything with carbs, sugar or salt, I'm even skipping out on Wheat and Dairy when I can because I heard those things need to be eaten in moderation. I feel disgusted with myself for being the weight I am, I hate eating, and I know I'm going overboard when it comes to calculating the nutritional value of foods. It's horrible, but at the same time I love knowing I can stop myself from eating those bad foods.

I've suffered from bullemia in the past, and sometimes it comes back sorta thing now, and I was almost anorexic but I realised just in time. I'm still unable to eat properly, which is making my periods all strange and late/not there. I've started making myself eat at least one thing in the morning to start my metabolism so I actually lose weight earlier on.

I'm a size ten (ten depending on the shop) top and ten bottom. It would be nice to be size eight everywhere, but it would be nice to have thin thighs and flat tummy and still be that size. Wishful thinking, eh?

I was anorexic. I obsessively counted every calorie and had a whole blog devoted to it. I spent 80% of my time thinking about my weight. It was terrible. Thank God that I'm past that.
I'm actually turning it into a story now.

I'm obsessed with my weight. I skip so many meals, I don't even get the amount of calories that a person gets in a day in an entire week. I keep a journal and schedule what I can eat, but I usually then say "fat" and skip eating alltogether. I count calories obsessively, and no matter what I do, I'm disgusted. I need to be thinner. Even then, I doubt I'll ever stop.

I think I don't have an eating disorder, but some days I just gorge on food, then the next day I'll barely eat anything. I don't see it as a problem, but my mom has been asking how much I eat in a day. And my blood sugar problems really limit what kind of food I can eat. I'm also a very pick eater.

I don't want to say I suffered and I don't want to say I was a full blown bulimic / anorexic, because that's not fair to all of you who really are / have been. But since sophomore year and excluding this year I would make myself throw up and I would only drink green tea all day and just eat dinner. There was a point where I ate pancakes and it hurt, it felt like my stomach was on fire so I had to make myself throw up and my sister brought me bottled water even though she wasn't accepting. Actually she didn't much care, she just didn't want to hear it.

Well I had gotten done throwing up and I went into the living room and her boyfriend at the time looked at me and scolded me and made me promise to never, ever do it again. And I didn't. I still starved myself, but I didn't make myself throw up. I haven't starved myself since about May, however, and I used to maintain a 165lbs weight, and when I got out of school and sat around the house eating all the time I gained 20lbs.

It's really difficult to just not stop eating, or to not throw up now because I'm not coping well with this weight gain.

I think I'm developing a binge eating disorder. I'm scared.