Eating Disorders.

  • Audioblue

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    I actually have several eating disorder habits, although I don't really have a full blonw eating disorder. I have been known to make myself puke after I eat, and I've also been known to skip full meals. I have some really freaky eating habits, like I will check how many calories are in a small snack bag of chips, and if it's 150 or more, I will only eat half the bag, or I'll eat the chips very slowly. Or, if I'm going to restaurant, I'll eat scrambled eggs before I leave - slowly - because eggs expand in your stomach or something like that. Even in the small packs of Smarties, that only have like fifteen, are hard for me. There's 25 calories in a roll of fifteen smarties - I'll only eat half the roll.
    October 27th, 2010 at 06:52pm
  • Ayana Sioux

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    Now I don't know about CED but I know my mother tends to eat a lot even when there's no need for her to eat. Even when she sees food she'd take a bite out of it or just eat it on the spot without even asking whose food it is. She's lost all will power for eating. Every time we go out to a game that has concession stands, i can't say there's a time when she didn't get popcorn. She eats snickers bars almost everyday, eats McDonalds and if we have ice cream she'd eat almost half the carton. It's getting quite disgusting to all of us (my dad, sister and brother) and every time I say something to her about it she'd always say "I'm an adult. Don't talk to me like I'm your friends" or "Worry about yourself." I do this because I love her. If I didn't care I'd let her dig her grave with her teeth. Now her health is out of control. She's way past obese and is just eating away. She's supposedly taking medication because she's having her periods too frequently now and yet her eating habits remained the same. She too is in denial that she's ridiculously eating. It's encouraged me not to snack the way I used to nonstop but it's rubbing off on my brother and sister. Hopefully they'll break it before they get fat like I am (okay, I'm not fat, I was exaggerating but I have a little pudge that I don't like).

    I just wish she'd stop eating so damned much! She keeps say "I need to go on a diet, I'm too fat." And the diet would only last about a day and she's back to snicker bars and popcorn. It's making me sick. I can't take it anymore and neither can my dad. If my dad wasn't so devoted to his marriage and if he didn't love her, he'd be gone a long time ago.
    October 28th, 2010 at 11:09pm
  • corrosive

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    hmmm.
    November 5th, 2010 at 02:21am
  • the fiddling imp

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    I've not had an eating disorder, and I don't think it runs in the family, thankfully. I did have more of an eating problem though, a year or so ago, but I think that's quite common.

    My friend has one though. It's really fucked up her life. Like, I'll see her one day and she'll be all excited and tell me that she's eating properly again. Then, I'll ask her what she's eating daily, and she'll say something like: "Oh, just, you know..."
    It normally entails something like a piece of toast.
    It's really sad Sad . I want to help her, but she's in denial and there's nothing any of us can do. wait
    November 12th, 2010 at 11:40pm
  • Clarinet D o r k.

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    I go back and forth between anorexia type moods and normal. For a month or two I'll hardly eat anything and I'll constantly check my weight and count calories and then I go back to eating normal and then back again. :/
    November 20th, 2010 at 01:21am
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    EDNOS. My current problem. Five months. Haven't gained; haven't lost. Just stuck. It sucks >.<
    December 23rd, 2010 at 11:44pm
  • Queen of Suburbia

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    I used to stand in between two eating disorders that counter-acted each other. When I was littler, my parents when they fought at night would always try to outdo each other in dinner, so I would end up eating twice. Whenever my father made me sad or angry, he would bring home junk food when he went out to the store. So I ended up eating whenever something bothered me and I just couldn't stop. Then my mother started calling me fat when I was about 12 or 13, so then I started to turn bulemic. I would feel bad, eat, then throw up, then do it over.
    I still think I'm fat whenever I look in the mirror, so I usually skip meals except for a snack or so during the day.
    January 10th, 2011 at 12:35am
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    I used to be bulimic. I'm not anymore, but if I go to long without eating I start to enjoy the way it feels. I try to be really careful about this, but it's difficult right now when the only things in my house to eat either take an hour to cook or my sister gets mad if I touch. I've lost two pounds I shouldn't really have lost and I'm living on about 700 calories a day.
    January 10th, 2011 at 05:16am
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    I don't have a disorder but I feel like I have to control how much I eat. Like I'll eat when I'm hungry but like earlier today, I went down to the kitchen to get something to snack on but I kept telling myself no. I ate dinner like three to four hours earlier so I felt like I was over eating. I just don't know why I have to control it so much, I can go a day or two without eating much and feel fine. I love eating don't get me wrong but I just feel like I got to keep it light or absolutely stuff myself and not eat for hours. I don't know if that's normal. It's the same with sweets to, I feel like I shouldn't have a lot because it makes me feel sick or unhealthy. Maybe I'm just weird... Confused
    January 10th, 2011 at 06:22am
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    ignore.
    January 10th, 2011 at 06:32am
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    I don't have an eating disorder and I never have had one. I'm conscious of what I'm eating and I've been eating pretty healthily and have been really fussy about it, but it's not a disorder. It's just health.
    January 10th, 2011 at 08:04am
  • AHLICE

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    I've never been diagnosed with it, but I have a GREAT fear I'm suffering from Anorexia nervosa. But, in health terms, and from what I've heard, you have to be severely underweight in order for you to be diagnosed with it.
    From young age, I've always had an intense fear of gaining weight. My Father would get on my sister's case about being overweight, and he'd point out fat people and make fun of them. Because of this, I grew to watch what I ate and always call myself fat. They thought it was a joke. I was serious. Then, last summer, it grew worse. My mind would tell me not to eat this, not to eat that. In 2 weeks I lost 9 pounds from simply not eating. I gained it all back, trying to deny I ever had a problem, but my mind would scold me for everything I ate. I lost all the weight again. I still look fat to me. I'm now exercising any chance I get, and eating as little as possible. I still feel pathetic, and my Dad has caught on to my eating habits and now will ask me every single day, "What's you eat today?" and tell me that I'm losing my "lovely figure" and how I'm just "skin and bones" now.
    I'm trying to get better now, but my mind is still attacking me, if that makes any sense. I'm mentally tired of this. But, that's just me.
    Eating disorders is NOT some "glamorous diet". It's killing me from the inside out. I'm miserable. Depressed. Sick of hating myself. Please, anyone reading this, don't go around trying to get an eating disorder. At times I wanted to kill myself, thinking it'll save me.
    January 29th, 2011 at 06:27pm
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    One of my friends is in the denial stage, she insists she's just going on a diet with her mum.... I'm very worried.
    My other friend has been recovering from an eating disorder, since the summer. She's amazing
    February 15th, 2011 at 04:39pm
  • Billy Michealangelo

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    March 3rd, 2011 at 08:29pm
  • WtfJESKA.

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    CED reminds me of just binge eating every day. it's a trick of the brain really. because you think you're empty but really you're not. There are certain foods that help trip that.

    Becoming anorexic has been so easily for my sister and I. I actually enjoy it compared to how I use to be. I use to have CED, infact I have relapses now, but in smaller porportions. I think we all just think about food way too much, especially with idle hands. We need something to fill the void.

    If I am bored, & I get hungry, I first brush my teeth, because that helps with the oral fixation. Then I suck on ice. chew on gum. I count the hours inbetween meals, and I focus on how much I eat when I do eat. it's a constant all day thing. :\ I didn't know it was ... unhealthy? I'm not under weight. I just happen to eat less than the normal person.
    March 10th, 2011 at 09:05pm
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    Billy Michealangelo:
    I don't know. I have a pretty healthy diet I guess. I skip breakfast but drink a cappuccino and then have a small salad for lunch and i eat whatever my mother fixes for dinner. She's vegetarian and health conscious so It's normally low calorie. I dont like eating anymore though. I used to love food but something changed. I like the way not eating feels. I guess i might be just a little messed up.
    You're supposed to eat a huge breakfast, and skip dinner. D:
    I know how you feel though. I like not eating too, I also hate when people ask me what my favorite food is; I always answer: I hate food.
    March 10th, 2011 at 09:08pm
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    I don't have a diagnosed eating disorder, but I know my eating is disordered. So is my relationship with food, and the way I see eating and weight gain. Sometimes I feel like I have Binge Eating Disorder, just because I eat and eat and eat even if I'm not hungry; if I see food, I'll eat it because it's there. Almost always, I eat until my stomach is stretched beyond its comfortability. Very rarely do I finish meals without clutching my stomach and whimpering. Sometimes if it's bad, I'll cry. So, I'm not claiming I have any sort of medical problems, just that I have some struggles that aren't too fun. And recently I've developed some strange viewpoints on calories. Any number greater than 0 seems too much. It's worrying, because I realize that it's not, but at the same time I can't help but cringe at the idea of consuming that much.
    April 7th, 2011 at 11:48pm
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    I posted something here about my bulimia, but that was almost three years ago and yeah. I still have it and I've begun to starve myself too. Though people who say that there's this constant voice in their head that says they're fat, they're ugly, they're useless, worthless, imperfect, etc., I realize that it's only mine. It's my voice that tells me I'm fat, I'm ugly, I'm whatever. It takes so much out of me, and on some days, when I have these bursts of motivation, I'll tell myself that I'll eat healthy tomorrow, and won't have to throw any of it up. Then on that tomorrow, I either do the opposite or my version of healthy is an apple and a million glasses of water.
    On the sort of bright side, I've gained 11 pounds, making me 100. I'm actually not upset about that, I sort of like the way I look with the weight. Mr. Green
    April 11th, 2011 at 08:37am
  • Billy Michealangelo

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    I can't eat gluten anymore. It gives me really bad stomach aches, heartburn, and makes me not hungry.
    I also have some Anorexic tendencies like feeling like i shouldn't eat because I'm too fat or i've eaten too much.
    I also think I used o be addicted to eating and I still binge sometimes. I would eat just spoonfuls after spoonfuls of sugar and eat whenever I was bored or just wanted to taste food.
    I'm pretty in control now though.

    [edit i do eat a lot of seaweed sheets tho...]
    April 12th, 2011 at 05:53pm
  • UsagiChaan

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    WtfJESKA.:
    You're supposed to eat a huge breakfast, and skip dinner. D:
    I know how you feel though. I like not eating too, I also hate when people ask me what my favorite food is; I always answer: I hate food.
    Technically, you shouldn't skip any meals.

    I usually don't eat breakfast until after my 8 and 9 AM classes. I eat lunch with friends three days out of the week and by myself the other two. Dinner is usually whatever they serve in the commons.
    April 13th, 2011 at 05:24am