Am I Weird?

Oh well...
1. I'm depressed. And I have social anxiety :))
2. I was in mental hospital for 2 months.
3. I don't have any hobby. Like, not at all. I can spend all day doing nothing but listen to music and play some stupid games.
4. I am fat and I know it. My sister is skinny and she likes to tease me saing all the time that she needs to lose weight.
5. I can get upsed by very stupid things, and no one knowshow - don't even want to - calm me down. Eveyone just shouts at me and this makes me upsed even more.
6. I daydream a lot.
7. I'm bisexual. Only my three friends know and they're fine with that. Most of my family is homophobic so...
8. I speak Polish very bad. It's my native language and of corse I know it very, very good (I even won some spelling contests) but when I say something it sounds like I was foreigner that is learing Polish, but don't know grammar at all.
9. I feel like I had completly empty mind all the time.

I can't shower, even in my own shower, without slippers...

I must make out to music playing in the background...eh?

I have very severe social anxieties, that have gotten much better as of late. At one point, I would become extremely angry, quiet, and suffer panic attacks in public. Thankfully, I can handle public much better, now, but being around crowds still makes me nervous and scared.

I feel like every person I actually have feelings for thinks I'm weird, misinterprets me and doesn't even consider me an option. I feel abnormal because of this and I'm scared I'm going to be like this forever.

There are a shit ton of other things that make me feel alienated and abnormal as well but this is the main one that's been plaguing me lately.

-I have horrible social anxiety that makes me look like a freak sometimes. It seems like I can't have a normal social life because of it.
-I've always felt there was something wrong with me that made me less than other, but I could never quite figure it out.
-I've been through so many bouts of depression in my life. I could've probably ended up in a mental hospital back when I was a teenager if I actually had real friends back in high school. My friend in high school actually ended up in a mental hospital because of me, since I reported her to the guidance counselor for being suicidal. I still don't regret that, though, and she actually recently sent me a Facebook message thanking me for what I did.
-I really don't know how to be happy with myself. I don't even know if I've ever felt truly happy with myself in my entire life.
-I have this thing called depersonalization that I've had since I was a young teenager. I've just accepted it, which has actually caused major improvements. Now, instead of being constant, it's just in the background till I realize it's still there. Maybe it's a wall to protect me from the world.