Am I Weird?

  • oreomylove

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    i'm not sure if this is right, but i feel as if i never feel anything or i only do things that please others. i feel like i'm numb with a smile plaster on my face and no one can see past it. i keep doing this to change this but the only thing i feel is pain. i try to grab happiness but it wont seem to come to me any more. i'm sick in the head. can someone help or is am i alone in the world. i'm just so confussed
    July 23rd, 2009 at 01:48am
  • The Great Defector.

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    Yeah, that sounds like depression. Maybe you should get some help. Like, go to a doctor or a counsellor or something. Just get help, as soon as possible.
    July 23rd, 2009 at 05:23pm
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    I concur with The Great Defector. You should go book an appointment with a doctor, or see a counsellor asap, because they could refer you to a psychologist or someone who can assess you. Together they can help find a resolution for this low.

    You've obviously got some tiny thread of motivation left if you're posting this, hold onto it and don't be afraid to talk to love ones about how you feel. It can help just a fraction. Just remember there are people here, forget about pleasing others in this instance, because as much as it hurts, the only way to help yourself at the moment is to be a little selfish. Even if you feel as if you're going to cause your loved ones to worry out, bring them pain from your suffering. They're entitled to worry, it's their job...I'll cease my rambling.

    Regardless, you should go to a doctor at least, or even talk to your parents because if this is a constant low you can't dissipate, you could possibly have depression. All the best of luck and if you ever need it, you can PM me anytime. :arms:
    July 23rd, 2009 at 05:56pm
  • valentine.

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    You don't have to please others, please yourself. Go have fun and do what you like. The fact that you focus on how much you can't feel distracts you from feeling anything else. Don't automatically assume you're sick in the head or alone, these feelings are naturally. If you really do feel depressed, go see a doctor. But to be honest, just think positively and don't give up.
    July 23rd, 2009 at 06:06pm
  • oreomylove

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    This is were i feel weird I've seen doctor's all my life since i was 6. but one by one that have all given up on me calling me 'mentially unstable, hostitalization recommended'
    i've grown to realize that i only act normal and that when ever i try to open up and feel life i get hurt i feel stupid analyzing myself but because of the constant doctor visits this is the conclusion i've come to i over analyze everything i never do anything right i have no reason to live but to chicken to kill my self barely any motivation. applies myself to the wrong 'time passers'
    somethime i think i do belond in a hospital but everyone would worry when i was going to go crazy more then it already happens
    something's not right with my mind
    July 23rd, 2009 at 07:45pm
  • The Beatles

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    This isn't weird about me it's actually about my sister.

    She has inside jokes with herself.
    July 24th, 2009 at 02:16am
  • Happenis

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    Negativity is much more stronger than positive, It's easier to feel and contract negative rather than positive. Maybe you need some more positive things in your life? :cute:

    I'm a creative, strong willed, at peace boy in my mind. In 'reality' , I'm a introverted, under-achieving, uncreative girl. :|
    July 24th, 2009 at 07:58am
  • Midnight Ruby

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    You need to stop trying to make other people happy and make yourself happy. And Doctors don't always know the right answers their human too, you should talk to your family and try to find real friends and if ya ever wanna talk to me I'm here I know what it is like being depressed and it sounds like you are
    July 26th, 2009 at 01:53am
  • oreomylove

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    thank you guys for your offers and i might just take up up on them its the first time anyone has ever been even a bit concered about me i don't know what to say but thank you
    July 26th, 2009 at 02:34am
  • cosmic killer.

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    I have conversations with my cat regulary. Everyone thinks I'm nuts. :weird
    July 26th, 2009 at 02:48am
  • lydiajudith

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    Eleanor Rigby;;:
    I have conversations with my cat regulary. Everyone thinks I'm nuts. :weird
    I do that too :tehe:

    I talk to myself when I'm by other people, they always look at me like I'm crazy.
    July 26th, 2009 at 02:52am
  • Lady Lazarus;

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    I pretend to have conversations with people.
    Out loud.

    It's not talking to myself.
    I just talk like my friend or the guy I like is next to me.
    And then I talk for them...
    It's creepy.
    July 26th, 2009 at 07:10am
  • loverfayce.

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    If I'm talking on the phone, I end up saying everything that pops into my head out loud.
    But only on the phone, not in person.
    I'll normally keep my thoughts to myself, but when I'm talking to someone else it's like I'm having two conversations, one with myself and one with the person on the phone…
    This is just making me sound more crazy :XD

    It's even worse when I'm on the phone and AIM at the same time. :tehe:
    July 28th, 2009 at 10:26pm
  • fool's paradise

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    Julia !?:
    She has inside jokes with herself.
    I have inside jokes with myself.

    It's because I have no one else to share them with. Sad
    July 28th, 2009 at 11:51pm
  • fearlessgirl

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    I see and hear things that other people don't. I don't have a mental illness, but I can tell that someone's going to do something before they do, and I can tell when the phone's going to ring five minutes before it does.
    I also talk to myself and yell at inanimate objects when they attack me...i.e. my bike falls on my and I yell at it to "stay! Good bike! STAY!!"

    God, I sound insane. :)
    July 29th, 2009 at 01:53am
  • Anarchy in Words

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    Lady Lazarus;:
    I pretend to have conversations with people.
    Out loud.

    It's not talking to myself.
    I just talk like my friend or the guy I like is next to me.
    And then I talk for them...
    It's creepy.
    I do that too!
    I really do live in my own little world.
    I've held entire conversations like that.
    July 29th, 2009 at 02:52am
  • PenisFace

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    I pick fleas off my cat. :|
    July 29th, 2009 at 03:51am
  • mr. mojo risin

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    I act out my favourite scenes from movies by myself sometimes. :shifty
    Like I act out I'm a drunk person and shit.... :|
    Or that I'm a phsyco sometimes. :XD I'm so fucked in the head.
    July 29th, 2009 at 05:42am
  • oreomylove

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    I've gotten help and they tell me i'm getting better i can feel angry and sad but i'm trying to find something that makes me happy maybe soon i'll be better hopefully
    August 3rd, 2009 at 02:05am
  • FICTION

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    Eleanor Rigby;;:
    I have conversations with my cat regulary. Everyone thinks I'm nuts. :weird
    Me too.
    But with my dogs. :XD
    I remember telling Buster [my dog] "You're the only man I need. We'll do fine. -hug-"
    :lmfao
    August 4th, 2009 at 08:24am