Recently I've begun to think I have androphobia. But the wierd part is that I have no reason to be. I've never been abused or had a bad experience with a man; my life has been pretty fortunate that way. I just... they make me nervous. I can't look them in the eyes. My heart starts racing, my head starts pounding, and I feel sick to my stomach. And this is only like actual men, not boys or teenage guy friends (though I have to admit there are some guys at my school I find myself becoming scared of more and more). I don't know what it is and I don't like it, I don't like it at all, but I don't think it warrants like proffessional help or anything. It's just that men scare me; they make me unbelievably uncomfortable.
For example there's this one teacher at school... oh my GOD... I had him for H. US last year, and I was just about scared to death for 80 minutes every class period. God, he scared me - and I don't know why. He was so nice, extremely funny/witty, and a good teacher overall. But for some reason, whenever I see him, or have to talk to him one on one, I feel as if I'm going to vomit. Literally, I would feel sick before his class every day. And even though I don't have him anymore, seeing him in the hallways still makes me feel like that.
I feel so odd, so freakish. I want to be able to feel normal and comfortable around men, and not shaky and nauseous. God, it's terrible and I just wish someone could fix me.
For example there's this one teacher at school... oh my GOD... I had him for H. US last year, and I was just about scared to death for 80 minutes every class period. God, he scared me - and I don't know why. He was so nice, extremely funny/witty, and a good teacher overall. But for some reason, whenever I see him, or have to talk to him one on one, I feel as if I'm going to vomit. Literally, I would feel sick before his class every day. And even though I don't have him anymore, seeing him in the hallways still makes me feel like that.
I feel so odd, so freakish. I want to be able to feel normal and comfortable around men, and not shaky and nauseous. God, it's terrible and I just wish someone could fix me.
September 28th, 2011 at 04:30am