What do you want?

I wrote not too long ago that I just want him. The him is a different him, and to be honest as fuck right now. He is all I ever want. I'm not saying in a "I want to marry you" kind of way. But I want him to stay in my life for a long time, I don't want him out of my life ever. He's changed so many of my views on things, and as much as he frustrates me sometimes...he is just the best thing to happen to me.

This isn't love, I've never been in love, but what I can say is that this isn't just lust. I care for him too much for it to be just that.

But I want him in the way that he can't do right now. Siigh.

I want to not have to work. I just want to stay in my house, probably my room, and just curl up in a ball and watch movies and tv. I want to just relax and not feel like I'm seconds from falling apart all the time.

But more than any of that, I just want to run away. I want to change my mind and cash out some of my inheritance and just run away to England. I want to know if life really would be easier if my best friend in the entire world was right there and not thousands of miles away.

I want my message to sent so I know that he's alright.
I want uni to begin yet at the same time I don't want to rush things.
I want to express more gratitude to my parents.
I want to use my time more constructively.

Inspiration
Passion
Insight
???

For someone to really and truly love me

The third and final game in the Fire Emblem Fates trilogy and also some water.

I want to get over him and not feel this pain in my stomach and not burst into tears every single time I think of him and for everything under the sun to not fucking remind me of him

My room to pack itself
This sickness to leave me alone

Can I just get a new life?

I want my own house already, luckily we're almost there.

I want to be rich AF so I never have to rely on anyone ever again.

I want to go back the previous three years of my life.

I want to be able to easily change the things I'm insecure about my body.

To mean something to someone

To not have everyone in my life treat me like shit.

Infinite knowledge.

To not feel so needy all the time

Longer, thicker hair

To find the motivation to finish this darn assignment

A larger social circle
A new boothang
To get back in shape

Motivation
Sleep

motivation and a banana

COFFEE

Cheese burger and inspiration.

motivation, inspiration, candy and a coffin