What Do You Regret?

[aside from falling in love with my teacher] Yesterday I wrote him a thank you note for the munchkins he brought my class, and I left it on his desk. Biggest mistake ever.

edit of course it makes top post.

While I'm up here, I might as well add, he thanked me for the thank you card, and I'm almost melted, and every time I see him in the hallways I get really nervous and can't speak. Oh! And on gym day I wore really short shorts just because.

I don't like to regret things, and so I don't often make the emotion real in my mind.
But I do regret her- Not having her so close to be, but for losing her. I don't regret
what I "did," essentially, to end up losing her, but I regret losing that frozen moon
that we made. I regret putting myself so close into her. I regret letting her see me,
even if she saw me all wrong. I regret letting myself believe she saw me all wrong.
I regret, because anybody who reminds me of her kills me, because suddenly it's
all I can see. I regret because she's not the most important thing in my life at all,
and she takes up so much of that dead part that I can't stop carrying.

And, I regret letting us get "caught." For my whole life since, I have only wanted to
be with you, to spend midnights and 5am's together, and to dream about a time
in which we will conquer the daylight. You understand too much. We feel too much
pain now. I can't even tell you how much I regret not being able to hold your heart
beat to my ear anymore, how much I regret not being able to tell your sleeping mind
poems, how much I regret not being able to look into your brown eyes. I regret worrying
about the future, because all I REALLY want is you. You are my dream. I regret
ever doubting anything you can do, even if that only comes in the rarests of all's.

I regret just being with that boy. He literally ruined my life.

I regret not trying to win him back when I still had the chance.

Not speaking up when I should have been tearing the foundations apart.

I regret letting the awesome diet I was following a few years ago slip because I was out and about and partying too much to care anymore... I felt so much healthier, and was so much thinner then, ah!

I regret not fighting for him. She took him and I didn't even fight. :(

Cheating on my fiance at the start of our relationship. It comes up in every single argument

I regret for selling myself short on my internship. I got rejected from one and took the first thing that came up in fear that I would not get another offer. I should have looked more instead of take the rebound because now I'm unhappy where I am.

I regret not trying harder on my college searches. I was just too afraid to try harder, I don't want to go to college at least not yet.

I also regret not joining an acting group when I had the chance, I think it would have done me a world of good.

But my biggest regret is not taking a lower math class. I couldn't swallow my pride and realize I needed help and instead I drove myself nuts.

I regret a lot.

When, I was a little kid I regret slamming my head into my mothers chin just to make her break the silence game. I regretted seeing her cry in the car mirror after she told me she had cancer. I wish I stood up for myself so many times in elementary school so maybe kids wouldn't see me as a shy girl that they could pretty much talk smack about whenever. I can't believe I lost so many of my good friends because I was a stubborn little fool who couldn't apologize when i was in the wrong. This year I really wanted to do my best in school... Once again I disappoint myself. I regret so many things I've done whether they were small or big. I don't know how to ever get rid of the feeling.

Something I posted a long time ago. I was really ignorant towards other people's opinions and feelings. But I feel like I've changed for the better.

Not opening up to my brother about how I was treated by the other girls in my class. All he wanted was to be closer to me and I just lied/covered everything up.

A certain something that I feel like will always be a part of my life because it just won't go away.

There's probably others, but that's all I can think of right now.

I regret cutting myself. I wish I never started it, never got the idea in my head. Now I have scars on my arms, and no matter how much they fade, they're still there. I'm always terrified someone will see them, and it's embarrassing and humiliating.

Sometimes I regret meeting my boyfriend.
I do love him, and I wouldn't know what to do with myself if I ever lost him,
but my life has become so stressful since meeting him
and I just wish everything would get easier.

Sometimes I'll regret ever telling my ex about my religion, but then I realize it was the right thing to do.

Not saying "I love you" to my Nan that one phonecall. It turned out to be the last time I would ever hear her voice =/

Falling out with him. I could have had what she now has if I hadn't been so paranoid. God >.>

I regretted not being the person I wanted to be. Instead, I let myself be wrapped up, never had the time to shine.

Spending so much money on heroin, and letting it become such a usual habit.

Sneaking into restrooms and making out. We almost got expelled if it wasn't for my ingenious lying.

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Dumping Philip.

I regret not being confident enough in high school.

I used to think my biggest regret was letting my first love/ first guy I ever slept with/ use me for sex... But looking back on it thats not my biggest regret because it made me who I am today. No, my biggest regret is not punching him in the face when he looked and me and said Im sorry I used you for sex! I think about that all the time...If I ever see him again hes gonna have hell to pay!