Ten different things you want to say to ten different people right now.

1. Thank you for all that you have done for me. I truly appreciate all that you have done. I wish that you could fathom how much I really love you. And I wish I told you more that I do.

2. Oh, fuck off.

3. I miss you. I miss our silly hangouts and the ridiculous things we do. It's hard having a best friend so far away. I hate the distance and I hate how it feels like perhaps we're growing apart.

4. I wish you'd make more effort in our friendship. You claim you miss me, yet you only want me or my time under your conditions. That isn't friendship, that is convenience.

5. I'm so blessed to have you in my life and I'm thankful for all that you have done. You are a person I look up to, aspire to be like.

6. I wish we were close like when we were younger. I miss that friendship. I know that you've tried, and I hope that you see that I'm trying. We're getting better.

7. I'm so happy for you. I truly am. You will make a great mother. I am only slightly envious as I cannot be one. And I wish I could squash that feeling inside me, but it hurts.

8. You claim that you love God, yet why are you constantly bullying my partner? They have done nothing, but helped you! How can you present yourself at the front and cry, declaring how much He loves us all, yet you consistently bully and harass my partner??? I wish you would stop your hypocrisy. Do you know how many people you have bullied?? For fuck's sake, you're a grown adult. You know better, you just refuse to act better. Eat shit.

9. If you don't like it, don't do it. If you're unhappy, leave.

10. I wish you were more of a gentle person. I wish you could freely express your love for my mother, brother, sister and I. I wish you weren't raised so hard-ass with that military background. I know you love me, and that's because we're close and I really make time for us. I just wish you knew that my siblings aren't the same, but they still yearn for your love and acceptance.

1. You're the biggest pain in my ass but I love you so much. I'm so glad you passed down your stubborn streak to me. It's one of the qualities that keeps me going in times where I just want to throw in the towel, trust me on that one. Like mother, like daughter, we're a team forever.

2. It took me a couple of tries to get a best friend that I know I'd have a lifelong bond with, and then you and I found each other, and you flipped my world upside down in the best damn way. You bring out the absolute best in me, and I try to better myself every day to make sure I'm worthy of the title of your best friend. You've seen me at my worst, my best, my uncertain and my finished, and you're still here. I love you, times a million, and you'll always be the Ackles to my Padalecki.

3. I'm so sorry our spark faded, but things like this happen all the time - it's an unfortunate part of life. We've had great, meaningful conversations, funny memories and some brilliant times, but we're just too different to keep ahold of our friendship, and that's okay. No hard feelings. No negative vibes. All love, all the way.

4. It's been nine weeks without you and it's starting to get to the turnaround point now. If, nine weeks ago, someone had told me it would get easier as time goes on, I never would of believed them. The day you were taken from me was when my whole world came crashing down. It's getting easier every day. The biggest comfort in all of this is that I know you've moved on, and I know you're being taken care of and you're running freely in open fields with blue skies. Until we meet again.

5. It's been such a joy and a privilege, watching you grow in front of me. Every day brings a new adventure with you, and seeing you transform into a confident, happy little man has brought some meaning back to my every day routine. You're an absolute darling and you and I, we're gonna be the dream team. I'll never, ever, let anything hurt you, or take you from me. It'd have to kill me first.

6. I feel like I've known you all of my life. You're someone that needs to be protected, you and that golden heart of yours. You're a hero, in every sense of the word, and I'll always take strength from you to continue, because god dammit, you do everything with 110% effort, despite your own struggles, and that's something that I, and everyone else, can learn from. Just... always keep fighting. Please.

7. I'm not your personal ATM. I'm not your cigarette fund. I'm not your alcohol fund. I'm not anything to you except your cousin, and I refuse to be used in such a way where you benefit and I'm left to be the fool. Why don't you ask your fiance for that money?

8. I understand - you're going through a lot. I get it. However, do not downplay my own struggle and fight just to amplify your own pain. Both of us are struggling. Yes, it's all in my head, why else would it be called a mental illness? You cannot say it's not real when you've not lived through what I have, and you've not experienced what I have. It's none of your business, but you're a nurse, and you should be more than understanding.

9. You frustrate me more than anyone else. I don't know what to do with you anymore. I just don't.

10. You took EVERYTHING away from me. You thought that, for as long as I existed, I would always be under your thumb. Here's what's going to happen: I'm going to fix the mistakes you've made, I'm going to, slowly but surely, undo that damage you've done, and I will be the one in control, as far away from you as possible. Watch me.

1. Wish you would help out around with chores more. I don't feel like I should have to tell you to do them. Is it going to be like this when we have kids too? Also, I wish I could breach the topic of talking about moving out, but I know it means you would have to pay majority of the rent, which I feel bad about. But I don't know how much longer I can stay here.

2. You're so annoying, but I don't have it in me to unfollow you for some reason. But I'm getting very close to that threshold. Is this how I used to be like at my lowest? It's like you can't go 5 minutes without proclaiming your abuse and how it has affected you. Like, just get a journal or something, jeez. Add to the fact that you're pretentious as hell and just...why?

3. It hurts seeing how much closer to her you are than I am. We used to be best friends, and the distance hasn't helped at all. I mean, you deserve having a beautiful friend like her, and I'm glad you have someone to talk with about everything, like we used to. I'm just sad and miss you.

4. I think if I could just hook up with you once, I could get you out of my head. Or maybe just a couple of drinks at the bar. Kudos to you for getting into martial arts.

5. Please leave him alone. Both of you. He hasn't bothered you two in months, almost over a year and whenever one of you shows up, he shuts down and you become a burden on everyone in the house. After everything you two have put him through, he deserves to leave it in his past. He's let you guys go, you two need to let him go as well.

6. Good riddance! I didn't like you anyway! I'm glad you're gone!

7. I'm so, so scared of you dying soon. I'm sorry I don't call more--I don't know what to talk with you about and I'm terrible at phone calls. I don't have it in me to visit either...I'm sorry, and you deserve better.

8. I hope she broke up with you. I hope your lack of commitment and emotions made her realize there was no way you could be anyone's "the one."

9. I'm not letting you bully me when we fly up in November. I'm ready to fight and I don't care what you have to say to me about my life anymore. You forfeited me caring about your feelings when you made our mother cry and too anxious to sleep from how much you pestered her.

10. Hey! You don't see me that much anymore because I hate talking to you! It's the same reason I keep my headphones on when I'm in the kitchen now! I hate small talk, and if all you're going to do is talk to me about my weight, I'm not having it!

1. Please stop talking about conspiracy theories and religious stuff.
2. Please leave him.
3. Please stop treating her like that.
4. I don’t really want you in my life still. I don’t trust you at all.
5. Please get some help. I’m afraid you’re in a really bad place and I just want you to be mentally healthy. I also want to see you functioning again.
6. I don’t think I’ll ever be close to either of you.
7. I thought we were close, but it turns out we’re not.
8. I know you don’t really like me. But I wish you did. I wanted us to continue to be close.
9. Stop being sexual.
10. Wish I could bring you back from the dead.

1. I thought about you the other night when somebody mentioned you, and I laughed. Apparently you're still talking shit about me and honestly, I kind of forget you exist 90% of the time. It's nice that you honestly feel so negatively about me that you're talking about me almost 6 years after we stopped talking but hey, you do you. Have a nice life lmao.

2. I know you won't notice it, but I feel like I play second fiddle to all of your other friends. I get that I'm a pain to be around and that I freak out in social situations, but even an invite would be nice. I miss you guys, I really do, and I feel like a constant pest when I message you trying to sort things out.

3. You are one of my favourite people and talking to you about anything and everything honestly brightens my day. I know we don't talk as much as we used to but that doesn't even matter because whenever you pop up I honestly feel like no time has passed at all.

4. We were all best friends at school, and yet you chose to set up a meet-up with only three folk, and with the pictures being plastered all over Facebook. I don't think you quite meant it that way, but it hurts to know that you organised a reunion day and I wasn't even invited. It really hurts to know that I was probably invisible that whole time and that I wasn't missed. It just hurts.

5. You realise this is why people despise you, right? You can't just swan in and act all hoity-toity and dismissive and expect people to react well to that.

6. Please stop acting like you're better than me because if it continues I'm going to get fired for punching you square in the fucking jaw.

7. I think you're lovely. I know a lot of people don't and that they think you're weird, but I think you're really lovely. You need to have more confidence in yourself. And honestly, fight for the cause because he's in the wrong and you're in the right. Don't doubt yourself.

8. Please stop messaging me. You're creepy, and you scare me. You know I don't like you in that way, and you know you made me uncomfortable because I told you this. I don't want you to continually try almost two years later. And stop the guilt-tripping because it's emotional blackmail. You know I don't wish harm on you, and I'm pretty sure you know what you're doing when you message me telling me that because I don't want to date you, you're feeling depressed. You know what state that puts me in as well. So please, just stop.

9. You're very arrogant. I'd quell that before people start genuinely disliking you.

10. I love you, you stupid mutt with your giant foot-crushing paws and giant soggy nose. But you're not getting my jelly tots.

1) I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I LYILYILY I WANNA SQUISH YOUR CHEEKS AND TELL YOU HOW AMAZING YOU ARE IN THE BIGGEST, SOPPIEST WAY!!! thank you for reintroducing me to big platonic love.

2) i can't believe i allowed myself to be taken in by you for this long. stop trying to contact me. stop pretending you've changed when the moment i speak to you, you revert back to the person that caused me to end our friendship because you think you've "gotten me." stop painting me as the villain. stop looking for me on every fucking form of social media you can think of. stop asking people where to find me and why i don't talk to you. stop harassing me. i wish no ill will on you. i never will. so please forget about me. stop thinking about me. i've already done the same.

3) i wish you would let her go. she's going to upset you no matter what happens, and you know it, yet you let her back in every time. it doesn't matter how i feel about her. please don't think that. i love you, you're one of my closest friends, and i hate that every time you come back from being around her you're angry and hurt. please stop doing this to yourself. let her go.

4) fuuuuuuuuuuuck offfffffffffff!!!!!!!!

5) sometimes i wish we hadn't fallen away from each other, but whenever i see you i know this was the right decision. we aren't good for each other. sometimes, i'm happy you broke the mutual. we don't need to speak anymore.

6) you are so cute...and sweet...and kind and precious and cute and cute and cute please...you really are amazing but i know i would never be able to truly be with you & hurts so much. i would love to give you all the love i possibly could, go everywhere with you, play with your hair, dress up, cuddle, let you know each and every day that you are beautiful, amazing, and loved. you make me so, so soft. you make my heart so big. with time, i'm sure i'll get over it & accept my fate, but for now? aaah!

7) please move. please get out. please relocate. please leave. please pack up. please move. g e t o u t . my patience isn't worn thin. shit's gone.

8) i'm so proud of you! you've become so confident and happy with yourself and you amaze me every day. you're one of the sweetest people i've ever spoken to and i hope things only go up for you!

9) i miiiiiiiiss you but i'm so bad at conversations and i'm in an ugly place more often than not and i worry i'll bring you down if i reach out. i hope you know i miss you & i hope i'll be able to talk to you properly soon!

10) it is an illness. you cannot see it, it is not physical, but it is an illness and you telling me to suck it up, get over it, that it's not that bad or any other recycled phrase from the Book of Bullshit you've got will not help me. if anything, it'll make things worse, which means you'll get angrier and things will continue to cycle until it's at the point of no return and you can't grasp why things have "suddenly" gone bad. either listen to the people that know what they're talking about or leave me alone until you're ready to understand.

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1. I really wish I didn’t have to see you or your kid’s face. I really wish I didn’t have to be around you. I don’t want you in my life. I don’t want to be in yours. I just don’t like you. Maybe our types are just not compatible. Whatever it is, goodbye.

2. I will no longer call you a fatherly figure or by a fatherly name. You won’t change. You are an abuser. Goodbye.

3. To quote Rose from Titanic “Goodbye, Mother”. I’m sorry, but you are the major reason why I am held back. You’re Rose’s mother. Like you have me in this box with the lid over it that you carry. You claim to love me and be the person who will “Always support me”. But you’re the main reason why I feel like I can’t be myself.

4. Sorry, but you are no brother of mine. Goodbye.

5. You haven’t been my brother since the day you looked down on me instead of sticking by my side. If I saw you on the street, I’d pass you and act like I don’t even know you like how you did me. Goodbye.

6. You’re a real witch. I hope you know that I loved the 10% of you that was good. But the rest of you is all meanness. Goodbye.

7. You weren’t a father to me. Why do I keep remembering you? Get out of my head and stop making me feel regret and sad for you when you weren’t even in my life. I’m throwing away everything that reminds me of you. It’s time to move on and I feel like the biggest idiot for acting like I cared that you passed away.

8. We’ll never be sisters, will we? Huh. That’s fine with me, because even when you were little I never really liked you. You were a lottle brat. I still don’t like you. Idk if that’s jealousy or what because he raised you and not me. Or becuase of other things. Who knows. But I know you feel it too. Goodbye.

9. You...Idk what to say. I don’t blame you anymore for what you did to me. But you’re no family to me either even though we share the same blood and that’s just because of how we were raised. Wish you never would have done what you did, though. Still. I’ll leave you alone and hopefully never bring you up again just because I think it’s best and you deserve not to be villified by me internally.

10. Why are you such a ice queen? I feel no emotional ties to you. Nor did I feel them with “Grandaddy”. I’m sorry for not loving you more, but you act like you don’t love. So, goodbye.