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No, I think you are still missing the point. I'll break it down. But your assumption is right. And no one said anything about genocides to other cultures, so please don't toss that in there.
You said your grandfather was forced to change his name when he immigrated? Did the name not still stay with him? He was aware of his name and culture still, that did not change. He still knew where his family came from, family names, I'm assuming, traditions of his culture and all that good stuff.
But the case with African Americans is different. Remember now, slavery in America lasted for about two centuries, then another century of segregation. So that's three hundred centuries of loads of crap, I'll get into the crap piece by piece.
But I'll start from the beginning, because this story is important to me. When enslaved Africans were first shipped here, not only where they stripped of their names, they were stripped from their cultures (in the latter) stripped of their religion and forced to follow whatever traditions, cultures, beliefs and names the slave masters gave them. Now, although this is just the first step and they are still aware of their names, cultures and etc., remember, this is only the beginning.
After years of slavery, human nature takes a toll on the white slave masters minds causing them to feel superior over blacks. Because of this, dehumanization was created by them towards Africans. Because Africans are so much different from Europeans, this dehumanization was much greater than that of Jews. This dehumanization also created oppression and inferiority. What does that make black people think? I can tell you first hand because I'll admit I once felt this way. It makes us think lower of ourselves in our consciousness', of course being stronger during that time period. That means we consciously begin to hate the texture of our hair, the darkness of our skin, darkness of our eyes, differences in our facial features and anything dealing with our race. This causes us to want to be the people who were supposed to be "better" than us. This causes issues later on, but I won't get into that yet. And remember, this is happening over the course of three hundred years. After three hundred years of assimilating to White, European American culture, where do you think our identities (cultures, names, religions, etc.) have gone? That was pretty much gone three generations into slavery.
This is also where the infamous word used among many African Americans today came from, nigga. A Jewish kid once asked me, "Why do black people call each other niggas if they don't want anyone else to call them that?" Why? It's the ultimate racial question among people I know today. It's because during slavery, we were called niggers. The term was used so much towards our ancestors, that even they began calling themselves the word out of hatred (in most cases) of their own people. Hatred formed by dehumanization, oppression and all that other bad stuff. And the name wasn't just used during slavery, it was used many years after it also. It's almost like you being born and someone calling you a name since you can remember. What else do you know to call yourself? When someone says "Ayana", I know they're talking to me because that's how people address me. If the slave masters of the past called our ancestors "nigger" we are going to respond to that because that's what we know of. It's imprinted in our minds and we even upset ourselves sometimes for using the word. I use it myself quiet often, I'll be completely honest with you. It's not that I like it, but it's almost inevitable (I sometimes say negro, which I think is better)
So, we're back to the present. The oppression we felt, and still feel all over the god damn globe, still lingers in the back of our minds. We are still niggers in the eyes of many. We don't like our kinky hair because it's bad, we avoid the sun because being dark is bad, dark eyes aren't as pleasurable. We want to be who we're not. In the back of our minds we were cursed with being BLACK and being BLACK is bad. Escaping the blackness is good. I believe a whole lot of this has to do with slavery in America and slavery in other countries where Africans were enslaved.
And you have to also remember that much of the truth and ugliness about slavery is sugar-coated in text books. It's not like people didn't kill black people. Have you heard of the KKK? They still exist today. And in the past, people burned slaves, hung them, raped women, tortured them, cut parts of their bodies off, killed their children, sold their children and their family, sexual harassed woman, shot them dead, cut their feet and hands off, put large things on their heads so the master could know if they were trying to escape, the notorious whipping sometimes till death, worked them to death, had them living in fucked up living conditions that caused their death, all kinds up fucked up shit that's even hard for me to put down. Some rather die than to live in these conditions. Enslaved blacks DID commit suicide and quite often, you know.
So, often times I get upset when people say "Why are you so worked up about slavery? It happened years ago." It's because that shit is still affecting our community TODAY, and the damage seems like it's taking an eternity to heal. We do not know who we are anymore. Erykah Badu says it the best, "We don't know our language, we don't know our god, we take what we're given, even when it feels odd" from The Healer and "If we were made in his image then call us by our names," from On and On.
And remember, it's been four centuries without our identities. All we have is our traits to identify ourselves. All I know is that my great grandfather was Scottish. I speak only English, born and raised for ten years in Maryland, and I'm still finding myself.
So, that is why I feel the damage done by The Holocaust cannot even come close to comparison to the damage caused by slavery in American and segregation in America. The Holocaust lasted for four years, not nearly enough to cause them to almost completely lose their identities.
That's why I can be bitter sometimes (if you pay close attention to my posts regarding race) and why I can have "too much pride" because our pride is destroyed.
August 27th, 2011 at 04:46am