I need to be Holmes. there is no if, ands, or buts about it, I have to be Holmes. Because that's what everyone expects of me. I've told everyone that I'm going to be a forensic scientist, that death is intriguing and serial killers doubly so and it's going to be so fun. And I want that, more than anything.
but I'm just not smart enough. I'm a bumbling fumbling Nigel Bruce idiot of a Watson. every time I do or say something stupid everybody looks at me with eyes full of shame, like 'oh, i thought she was smarter than that' and it KILLS me every time. every wrong answer, every wrong deduction, brings me that much closer to wanting to die. (and this happens at least every five minutes)
February 22nd, 2011 at 06:58am