Hi!
-I am a 16 year old female.
-just one at the moment. Although he does have a sister who appears occaisionally.
-I created him this year actually.
-16. His sister is 14
-my main imaginary friend is male. He is Japanese and his name is Yukiyashi Sakagawa. His sister name is Naoki Sakagawa.
-not usually. He is always there if we're going out though, and if I do, I am normally talking to him in whispers so I don't look, well, crazy.
-no, in fact quite the contary. I think both of my imaginary friends have benefitted me. They have helped me deal with loneliness and depression.
I have these friends as a way of escaping reality. And having someone to talk to. If it makes any difference, I have been diagnosed with Asperger's although I don't think I am typical to the syndrome, I am unique. I also never really had that many friends and I never go to parties or anything that often, and even less now that I have moved away from my only friend who is also my best friend I ever had. We've recently moved to Cornwall which as you may know is quite isolated. We live in a small village that is occupied by just a few old people and the tumbleweed. I was taken out of school in year eight because of severe bullying and was home schooled from then on, and now I attend a full time college course with animals. But although I do have friends there, none of them really live up to my imaginary friends. So I created them to fill a void, because without them, I constantly feel incomplete, I am missing something.
Also I am learning Japanese and have been for about 3 years and never had anyone to speak to in Japanese. My best friend has a friend who is half Japanese half Scottish who I've never met and so really I was envious because she's not learning Japanese. Everyone around me wasn't so supportive of my Japanese studies, and when I was at my nan's I was telling her about it and she said "we don't speak Japanese here, we speak English." Then my brother starts learning it cos he wanted to go to Japan for a year teaching English but he didn't get to go in the end. Everybody gave him credit for it when I was learning it first and my mum even told my friend's mum that he was learning it, but didn't even mention that I was learning it. So it's nice to have someone to speak to in Japanese.
Yukiyashi is not really based off of anyone. I made the name Yukiyashi Sakagawa up. I don't know if it's a real name or not or where I got it from, but that's what he's called. He's got dark black hair that is sort of emo-ish. It's kind of like L's hair from Death Note. It looks messy most of the time except when he takes the time to style it. He has fairly pale skin, almost the same as me. He has big, almond shaped eyes that always look like he's smiling. And he wears amazing clothes. He likes wearing shirts that have funny motifs on them or quirky slogans or logos. He also like cute pictures and kawaii designs or anime characters, or Japanese writing. Other than that he wears a plain t shirt or smart/casual outfits. His personality is very shy and non confrontational. He's not that talkative although will answer questions and we will have good, intelligent conversations when he's in a cheerful mood. Sometimes he even gives me advice. But he is always there for me when I need him. He makes me smile when I'm happy, and cheers me up when I'm sad. He always listens. He doesn't just talk about himself all the time and go on and on and on about stupid things. He always listens to my problems and helps me through them. Sometimes we have full converstaions in Japanese, but most of the time it's in English. He moved to Cornwall when he was 10 because his dad moved his job over here, but now his dad has kicked him out of the house because he doesn't have a job and now he stays here. He has battled depression because of this for a few years now and has told me about how his dad was never there for him even when he was young. He has nowhere else to go so I said he could stay here as long as he was nice. He sleeps in my bed because he would either have to sleep in the wardrobe which is full of spiders or the floor which is hard, and we don't have a spare bedroom. I don't mind. He is very smart and he seems to know a lot about the world yet still regain his childlike attitude. A bit like me in a lot of ways. His favourite food is ice cream, pie, and Japanese food like sushi and ramen. He likes anime and we watch it together. He likes playing video games and he is obsessed with pacman for some reason and old school mario on the game boy. He is also afraid of the dark and of spiders. I guess, he is also kind of like an invisible boyfriend, although it hasn't progressed to the level where I am pretending to make out with him or anything. But I have never had a boyfriend, and I have never met a guy like him. Most guys I know are loud, rude, cocky and show-offs and although these types of guys are funny, they are not desirable for a boyfriend. Yukiyashi is filling a void that can not be filled. He is actually quite mysterious shy and intelligent, but none of the guys at college are like that. I have pretty high standards when it comes to guys, because I am not like most girls my age who just waste their time breaking up with guys and I don't want to deal with all that drama. I want my first boyfriend to be my last, and I want it to be a mutual bond. I've been asked out by a guy who is nice and all, but there just isn't that "spark". So I said we could just remain friends. But I don't want to go out with someone just for the sake of having a boyfriend or for social status. I want it to be love, that special someone who makes me feel that way. None of the guys I know make me feel that way. Yukiyashi is just like a substitute.
His sister Naoki comes over sometimes from her dad's house. She is 14 and so isn't old enough to get a job. Sometimes she gets the bus over here. She is pretty hyper and bubbly most of the time, but can be easily hurt and is also sensitive. She loves everything kawaii and cute. She always wears cute skirts and pretty shoes and pink bows in her hair. She wears shirts with Hello Kitty as well. She can't get enough Hello Kitty. She often borrows my clothes when she runs out of clean things to wear. She always brings them back though. She is so innocent and childlike that it brings me up on a down day. She likes cooking and drawing and reading manga. She has OCD though and can't touch anything dirty when she has just washed her hands. She has to wash her hands again after she has touched the door handle or a public train thing or something. She also is claustrophobic, vegetarian (like me) and she loves brocolli and carrots but she hates sprouts and garlic. She loves Jpop and she also likes Lady Gaga and stuff like that and she loves to dance. He also gets hyper on sugar which is why I think she has ADHD but she said she doesn't think so that's just the way she is and she doesn't want to have any more problems. A bit like me being labelled as having "Aspergers".
I have always talked to myself out loud. I have never really been close enough to anyone to tell them absolutely anything. But when I'm alone or even in public I'll catch myself talking to myself out loud and sometimes don't even realise I was doing it. Until someone points it out. I always have talked to myself. Especially in bed. I just need to get all my thoughts out in the open, even if no one is listening. I guess I invented my friends as a way to get those thoughts out of my head and into the open, without anyone to respond negatively. It's like I am in control. But I guess my "friends" will be sticking around for a while unless I find someone who is at least a little like Yukiyashi, which won't happen where I am now. But one day I want to travel to Japan, it's my lifelong dream, and I won't let anyone hold me back from my dreams. I have been told I have an overactive imagination. It's not like I can see them but I can picture them in my mind. Anyway thanks for taking the time to read this extra long post. I didn't know that it would be this long sorry. I always get a bit carried away when I am doing creative writing. I get lost in my imagination and for one small moment, I am in control in this crazy, mad world.