Woke Animal Feelings In Me

[sorry - I have soooo much trouble starting! So I apologize that it sucks]

Jimmy rolled out of bed, getting ready. Today was the day that they started their tour. A good day. Touring with the guys, his closest members of the pack, was amazing. Of course, they had all of these screaming humans after them - but it was something you got used to as a rockstar. He was still waiting for his one though.... She had to be out there somewhere - but he couldn't even search the crowds. There were too many humans to hide the werewolves and he was still just waiting for his soulmate. He smiled as he got to the tour bus. He loved this fame. Come on - he was still a guy... He still liked hearing girls chant his name. It would all be worth it at some point.

(It's okay. n.n)

Kim rolled out of bed, excitement burning in her bones as she rushed around and got ready for the day. It was the day she was supposed to be leaving for tour with the band she was selling mercy for and she couldn't have been more excited because of the band it was. It was her favorite band of all time, yes, but she also knew that she had to treat them like they were normal people because that's exactly what they were. Once she was picked up by her friend and dropped off to where all the buses were by him, she looked around and felt a little lost. She wasn't sure which bus it was that she was going to be sleeping on and she wasn't used to selling merch for such a famous band. Kim noticed the bands drummer and decided that she should ask him where she should go, dragging her luggage over to him with her before she tapped him on the shoulder. "Uh, excuse me?"

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Jimmy was just standing there, waiting for everyone else to get there. It wasn't like he was the first... The crew had been there for awhile, getting things ready for the bus, but I was the first of the members to arrive and I was just watching, enjoying the sight of my pack getting everything ready. Another tour. Another glorious time. I jumped a little when I felt a tap on my shoulder - growled a little. I wasn't used to people touching me... Except for fans. Fans always tried - but they never succeeded in getting very close. I just turned, hoping if it was a fan that I could get rid of her quickly. When I turned, my heart stopped. My breathing did too. There was a rush of emotion and my eyebrows furrowed together. Was this it? Was this love at first sight? The way that my heart had a new desire that was like any other... I was drawn to her - I even stepped a little closer so that I was nearly touching chest to chest with her. I couldn't take my eyes off of her. But I wanted to deny it. I could tell there was something different. Was she even a werewolf? It didn't feel right. She was fragile... Small. The exact opposite I pictured for a mate, yet the only thing I desired now. I snapped out of it though, telling myself it was a figment of my imagination - because she was merely human - and I shook my head. "Uh, yeah?" I asked her in a gruff voice. "What do you need?"

Kim noticed how weird he was acting as he turned around and furrowed her eyebrows in confusion. It was confusing her a bit as to why he was looking at her with eyes that were glazed over with some raw emotion in them that was unlike any other she had ever seen before in her life. She pretended like she didn't notice it as she stepped back a little, the closeness of him being a little uncomfortable because she wasn't used to being so close to people yet at the same time it felt so right and like she was meant to be there and be that close to him. Kim shook her head to rid herself of the weird thoughts before she smiled up at the much taller man hesitantly, hoping she wasn't disturbing him or making him mad at her for bothering him or something. It was something she always worried about - bothering people - and she just felt like she was bothering this band member for some reason. "I was... I'm looking for the bus that the people who do band merch are supposed to stay on," she said quietly. "And I'm sorry if I'm bothering you. I can go ask someone else if you're busy," she added quickly.

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Jimmy jumped a little at the sound of her voice. So sweet... So gentle. He licked his lips lightly, knowing he shouldn't like it, yet he still couldn't deal with the fact that this could be his mate. But what if it wasn't? What if he had just been so frustrated with the fact that he didn't have a mate yet that his body had just shown him this girl as if she was to shut him up with all of his whining. He shook his head and ran a hand through his hair. It couldn't be... She was a fucking human. She wasn't worth anything. And what was the point of having a mate that you could kill with one angry bite? "No... You're not bothering me..." He said softly, in an oddly dreamy tone and then cleared this throat. So this girl was going on the whole tour with them?! Well fuck... "You'll be on our bus I'll assume..." He said softly. He wanted her to be anyways...

Kim continued to stare up at him, her expression showing one of completely confusion the whole time. The tone of his voice was something she couldn't quite describe. It was like something you only heard in movies when the character was in a dreamlike state and they were trying to find their way out of a place or were calling out to someone or maybe... No. She didn't think that was possible. Kim raised an eyebrow when Jimmy told her that she would be staying on the band's bus, her eyes going slightly wide. She definitely wasn't expecting to have to stay on the bands bus because usually the merch people got their own van or something of the sort and had to ride cramped together and it stunk really bad usually. "I... Oh. Okay, good," she said in response to him saying she wasn't bothering him. "Your bus? Are you sure?" she asked as she looked around to see if there was anyone else around that was of a more authority figure and that ran things so that she could make sure he was right. Kim wasn't entirely sure he knew what he was talking about because in her experience the band didn't really have anything to do with where the crew stayed.

[Omfg. I've been on my phone and thinking we've been writing so much more. xD ]

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[sorry - do you want it more? I'm always on my phone]

Jimmy felt like an idiot for a moment. Here was a merch girl - mostlikely a fan - and he was the one being tongue-tied. He was sure he was acting like he had never met a girl before, and that might've been true... He had never met a girl like that. Not someone who was so sexy and sweet. He could see that she was confused with him, and he wanted to just sweep her up into his arms right now and kiss her until she just couldn't breathe. That was wrong. He didn't want that with a fucking human. But he heard her words. It sounded crazy. Were merch girls usually on their bus? No... But was he going to let this merch girl get away from him when he could possibly have her in his bed? There was an uncharacteristic lust for her that he couldn't explain and he frowned lightly. "Yeah - well, I think... I don't know where else you would be staying if you're not..." He had to keep clearing his throat, or else it was going to kill him. There was a continuous growl in the back of his throat - nearly a groan of lust and want for her and he didn't want her to know that! The thing was that the last thing he needed was some girl seeing that she was getting to him, especially a human. It was messy - he would have to tell her...and all that shit. But he was determined that she wasn't his mate. She just couldn't be.

Kim nodded her head slowly in response to him as she bit down on her bottom lip. So she was going to be staying on his bus? And with how weird he was acting with her was kind of making her worry about staying on the bus with them because that would mean she would have to deal with how he was acting 24/7 except for when they were on stage and during concert hours. She took a deep breath and smiled up at the much taller man, licking over her lips. "Alright. Well, I guess I better get my luggage and get on over to your bus," she said to him with a nervous laugh. Her stomach was going crazy with somersaults and butterflies and she couldn't quite comprehend why. She felt uneasy around the drummer of one of her favorite bands and as much as she wanted to stutter she was making herself keep her cool. Kim knew though that at one point she was going to eventually break and was going to start making a fool of herself in front of this gorgeous human being - although she wasn't sure if he was human. With the inhumane growl he had made earlier it made her question if he was quite human or not.

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Jimmy sighed a little as he tried to hold back all of his emotions. There was part of him that just wanted to take her into the back of the bus and make her his right now - and yet there was another part that was repulsed by the very idea. What was he to do? It wasn't like he could even tell any of the guys? They were werewolves all the same and the very thought of being with a human was like social suicide - as well as a pack betrayal. There were rules to these things: 1) never tell anyone about their secrets of being a werewolf and 2) don't ever fall a human... Humans were dangerous - as well as conniving. They were the best at killing werewolves, even if werewolves were using the stronger and wiser. He growled lightly at the very thought. If this supposed girl was his mate, he would be breaking both of those rules. Hell, he would probably even be cut off from the band - because who could trust a freak werewolf who wanted a human of all things?! Why was the thought so appealing besides? "Right - I'll see you on the bus!" He said with a wink. He couldn't help but to be charming to her besides.

Kim jumped slightly when she heard him growl again, the sound shocking her as she stared up at him as he stood there silently for a couple moments. She didn't understand where his aggressive growling was coming from and it was really starting to scare her slightly although when he said that he would see her on the bus and winked at her she couldn't help it when her cheeks started to heat up to a light shade of pink and her palms started to get sweaty from nervousness. "Oh... I-I, uh, okay," she said to him with a grin before waving and grabbing the handle to her suitcase. She hurried off toward the bus that he had told her she would be staying on, kind of hoping that the rest of his band wasn't as weird as he was although he had a certain charm about him when it came down to it that surpassed the weirdness and made her overlook it. Kim walked onto the bus and looked around it in awe. She had never seen something that was so luxurious and so apartment-like that was on wheels. She had gone camping when she was younger but their traveling trailer never looked like this. But she was guessing this was what you got when you were a rockstar and as famous as Avenged Sevenfold were which made her start to wonder how they lived outside of tour. She shook her head to rid herself of the thoughts and walked further onto the bus, biting down on her bottom lip nervously.

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Jimmy honestly didn't mind if she stayed on their bus. Of course, he couldn't tell the others any reasons for that because he would surely be reprimanded by the pack, but he could keep his thoughts to himself. It was just a lust. And one night wasn't going to kill him. If he had some with her once or twice in the bus, it was going to be just a fling. It didn't actually affect him. He waited for the other guys to get there, hoping he would be better prepared then when he had all of his werewolves around him. He wouldn't be so focused on this lust he had for her.
Matt got there first and he smirked at him. "I smell human," he said in disgust instantly and it made him frown. Okay... That wasn't going to take his mind off of anything right now. It was only making it worse. He needed to get his mind off of the humans, not back on them...
They went inside the bus together and he frowned, knowing Matt was displeased. "What is a human doing on our bus?"
"She's a merch girl," he replied.
"On our bus?!" A growl followed. This was not going to go over well.

Kim placed her things in the back where she found Jimmy's things and looked around the back area. It was littered with all types of things and it was like a lounge area for the guys for when they wanted to relax. She soaked in the glamor of it all before she heard voices in the front of the bus causing her to tense up when it sounded like one of them wasn't too happy. She was really hoping that Jimmy was right and that she was supposed to be on their bus instead of in a van or on another bus with the other crew members. Kim walked out from the back and smiled a bit uneasily upon seeing an unhappy expression on the singer of the band's face. "Uh, h-hi," she stuttered as she waved at the both of them. The singer who she knew to be M. Shadows scared her even more in person and seeing him next to Jimmy made her want to shrink back into a corner on the bus and hide. He was much more muscular than the drummer and even though he was shorter than him he towered over Kim by a good half a foot.

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Jimmy frowned a little as they fought. What the hell was this? It just wasn't fair. He shouldn't have to defend some human! Hell, why was he defending her anyways? She was human... He could easily just tell her that she wasn't welcome here on the bus and that would be that. It wasn't until she came to the front of the bush, interrupting their conversation that he remembered. It wasn't like he could forget a breath-taking beauty like that - but he had talked himself out of it. And now he was equally as taken this second time as he had been the first time. He frowned slightly and growled as Matt seemed to get into a defensive position. She was a girl. What was he going to do? Hurt her? If he tried, Jimmy would have to stop him... And then how would he explain that? He didn't know. "Who the fuck are you?" Matt asked her, softening just a little. Jimmy hoped he hadn't softened for the worried growl he had given... That was the last trouble he needed.

Kim's eyes widened as she stared between the two of the big burly men, swallowing the lump in her throat. She really didn't know what to say because she had heard them growling and it was the most inhumane thing she had ever heard in her entire life. She looked around her to see if there would be any type of an easy escape if she had to incase either of them tried to hurt her, the panic starting to set in. "I-I'm K-Kim," she stuttered as she wrapped her arms around herself as if to shield herself from the man that was being the most violent she had ever had to deal with. "I'm the- the merch girl for your band," she said quietly as she looked away from the two of them. With a man growling at her like he was, she didn't know if she was supposed to be scared so shitless she should be pissing her pants or if she should've already scattered from the bus. "I can leave if I'm causing problems. I'm sure if this is all a big misunderstanding than whoever I'm supposed to stay with is sti waiting for me and I can go and still take my spot," she rambled.

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Jimmy watched her. She was cute when she rambled... Fuck. If he hadn't been screwed at first, he definitely seemed screwed right now, and he was annoyed. But at the same point, he didn't want her to leave the bus. That way, he could monitor the situation. He could see what she wanted with them - and see what he wanted with her - because right now, he'd like her in his bed, moaning his name if this remained as just a lust, it was no big deal... Humane lust happened ever once and a while - but if it was something more? He would be royally screwed... Matt was watching him too. Even as she spoke, he was watching Jimmy because he knew something was up, and it was making a low vibrating come out of the back of Matt's throat in offense - a noise that only could register to Jimmy's ears. Matt turned his eyes on her and then shrugged. "Stay!" He said surprisingly calm - maybe fakely calm... "Would you mind just giving me and Jimmy here a few moments of privacy?" He knew something was up - and he wasn't tolerating it.

Kim nodded her head quickly as she smiled up at the singer wearily. "Of course. I'll go convene with the othe crew members and then I'll be back in a little while," she said quickly before she rushed off the bus. She could tell that Jimmy and Matt had something they needed to talk about and she didn't want to get in the middle of that. Especially since they were best friends and had probably known each other for a very long time. She looked around for the other people that were doing the merch for Avenged Sevenfold and the other bands, finding them after a few minutes. Kim really didn't know what else she could do so she just struck up a conversation with them, asking them when they were supposed to be leaving as she stood around with them. Her mind kept wandering back to Jimmy, not being able to get the look on his face or in his eyes that he had when he looked at her. She had never seen that look before and it kind of scared her. Although it excited her at the same time. She was so drawn to him, more so than she ever had been before and she wanted to get to know him better so that she could figure him out.

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Jimmy knew that privacy was going to be a bad thing. It meant that Matt saw through him. He was always better at reading him than the rest - he just was - and he hoped that Matt didn't think badly of him. When Kim had walked off - and Jimmy's eyes had followed her all the way off - Matt let out a growl and Jimmy attention returned to the threatening man now. He opened his mouth to try to come up with an explanation, but none came out, so he just shrugged and shook his head. "So why did you tell a merch girl that she could be on our bus?" He asked. It was like he was taunting him... If he already knew, he should confront him - not keep this going! But Matt was like an alpha around here so there was nothing he could do but answer the questions and explain himself - and beg for mercy when it was needed (because he figured it would be). "I don't know... I didn't think... I thought she would be staying on this bus, alright - I don't really know what was going on." And he didn't. His mind told him he was in love with a human for a mate - impossible! Matt looked at him and shook his head. "That look... That look in your eyes. You found your mate?!" He asked in happiness. So... He didn't figure it was the human - which was a good thing, and a bad thing... What happened when he found out then?

Kim talked to the people some more before she started to help them pack up the buses with all the supplies. Her mind couldn't stop wandering to Jimmy and how perfect he seemed to be even through all of the growling and aggressiveness that he seemed to have he still seemed to be an amazing person even though she didn't really know him. She started to think about his sleeves of tattoos and how they stood out on his pale skin even more so than they would have if he were tan and the labret piercing that he had that made his lips look even more inviting and more kissable than anyone she's ever been with before. Kim's eyes widened when she realized what she was thinking about and she almost dropped the current box that she was carrying. She didn't understand what was going on with her. She had never thought about someone like this before so quick after meeting them especially when they were kind of her boss. And the fact that she was getting butterflies in her stomach while thinking about was making her paranoid and making her think that maybe it wasn't a good idea for her to be staying on the band's bus. She sighed softly and finished up with all the packing, running into Brian on her way back to the bus. "O-oh, I'm sorry!" she exclaimed with wide eyes.

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Brian managed to hide back a growl as he fought some girl getting on the bus. Who the hell was this? Another stupid fangirl thinking that she could slip onto the bus and somehow magically have one of the guys to fuck her and fall in love with her. Multiple had tried - but if had never succeeded. "Where do you think you're going?" He asked softly, crossing his arms.
Jimmy frowned a little as he heard Matt and he shook his head. This wasn't going to end well. How was that possible? It had to be more than lust if Matt could see it in him... This wasn't something that they could hide - and it was also something addictive and irrational. Like the way that he couldn't focus on Matt and what he was saying because he was thinking about her and how he might love her when she get back on the bus... Not in an innocent way. "I'm not sure about that Matt," he said softly, shaking his head. He wished he could be happy to find his mate - but how could he be? How could he honestly be happy when she was a human and it couldn't work between them? Not at all...