Secrets All Around Us

Kim rolled her eyes when he mentioned that their situation was entirely different. "I didn't think that Jimmy was going to leave me if it was his baby. We made vows that Christmas Day three years ago. But cheating is an entirely different story like you said. He's totally going to leave me. Oh my god. He's going to fucking leave me. I can't lose him, Matt. I'm in love with him," she hyperventilated as she choked out a sob, the hot tears rolling down her cheeks as it finally hit her.

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Matt frowned deeply. "He won't leave you, Kim. If he finds out, I'll tell him it was my fault. It was a one-time thing when we were drunk and it meant nothing," he said. "Please don't freak out. I can't drive with you freaking out like that."

Kim shook her head as she buried her face in her hands, sniffling quietly as she tried to keep herself under control. She didn't know what she was going to do with herself anymore. If she lost Jimmy, that meant she had lost her whole world. Every memory she had up until now had been with him and she didn't know what she would do without him. She'd pretty much be lost. "I'm s-sorry! It's the fucking hormones making me crazy."

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"It's fine," Matt said. "Just calm down." He pulled into the parking lot of the liquor store and got out. "I'll be right back." He walked in and grabbed a few cases of beer, hauling them out to the car before he got in and looked over at her. "It'll be fine. You won't lose Jimmy."

Kim slowly nodded her head as he said that and she reached over to grab his hand. "I'm surprised he hasn't found out yet tonight because usually I drink a glass or two of wine," she said quietly to Matt. "He's been looking at me weirdly tonight. Has he been talking to any of the guys?" She asked him. She was really paranoid because she wanted to find the right time to tell Jimmy that she was pregnant and she didn't know if Brian and Michelle's wedding day was the right day Considering the circumstances.

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Matt nodded his head. "He's mentioned that you've been acting weird a couple times, but he usually just chalks it up to hormones or something," he shrugged. He squeezed her hand and looked at her. We'll be fine."

Kim smiled ever so slightly and nodded her head. When they got back to the reception hall she leaned over and pressed her lips to his, missing the feeling of his lips on hers. As much as she loved Jimmy, which she really did with everything in her, she had started to fall for Matt. But she would never tell him that because she knew that would complicate things and because he was the one that was abdement about there being no feelings involved.

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Matt cupped her cheek in his hand and held her there for a minute. He leaned forward and kissed her lips again. "I . . . uh, we should probably get back inside," he said, pulling away from her and getting out of the car. He grabbed the beer and brought it inside, carrying it over to Jason.

Kim frowned as Matt pulled away from her and practically rushed inside. She got out of the car and slowly walked inside, wanting to make it look completely innocent and like she had been smoking like she usually did before she was pregnant. She was going to tell Jimmy tomorrow but for tonight he was to think that she wasn't pregnant. She walked over and sat back down next to her husband, grabbing his hand. "Sorry I took so long."

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Kim frowned as Matt pulled away from her and practically rushed inside. She got out of the car and slowly walked inside, wanting to make it look completely innocent and like she had been smoking like she usually did before she was pregnant. She was going to tell Jimmy tomorrow but for tonight he was to think that she wasn't pregnant. She walked over and sat back down next to her husband, grabbing his hand. "Sorry I took so long."

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Kim frowned as Matt pulled away from her and practically rushed inside. She got out of the car and slowly walked inside, wanting to make it look completely innocent and like she had been smoking like she usually did before she was pregnant. She was going to tell Jimmy tomorrow but for tonight he was to think that she wasn't pregnant. She walked over and sat back down next to her husband, grabbing his hand. "Sorry I took so long."

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Jimmy smiled at Kim and kissed her forehead. "It's fine," he said. "We're about to eat anyways, you didn't really miss much." He was a bit worried about her, but he knew not to think too much of it. He didn't want to suggest something, be wrong, and upset her. He hated seeing her upset.

Kim nodded her head ever so slightly and smiled as he kissed her forehead. She moved so she was sitting closer to him and looked over at Brian and Michelle, envying their relationship. She really wished she could go back to Jimmy and her's wedding day. Then maybe she could've changed everything and not have cheated on him because she knew it was her fault the affair started in the first place. "Good, I'm starving."

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Jimmy pulled her close and grinned at his friends, clapping along with everyone else as they cut the cake. "Gosh, do you remember when we did that?" he whispered into Kim's ear.

Kim looked over at Jimmy and nodded her head as she grinned at him slightly. "Yeah, I remember it all too clearly. It was the happiest day of my life other than the day you proposed," she said to him quietly. She started to think back through all the years they've had together, sighing softly at the fact that if she lost him she would've pretty much lost her world.

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Jimmy grinned and pecked her lips before he stood up. "Do you want me to make you a plate?" he asked.

Kim nodded her head as she looked up at Jimmy with a small smile placed upon her lips. "Would you, please? And can you load it? I want to have a lot of food. I'm really hungry."

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Jimmy chuckled and nodded his head. "Sure," he said. He went to get plates for them, making sure to get everything that Kim liked.

Matt sat down in Jimmy's chair and looked at her. "Are you okay?" he asked.

Kim looked at Matt as he sat in Jimmy's chair and sighed quietly. "Yeah, I'm okay. Jimmy just went to go and get us some food. What I'm not okay about is the fact that it felt like you were trying to get away from me," she almost snapped at him as she crossed her arms over her chest and almost faced away from him.

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