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YIKES i just realized it's my turn. So sorry! I should have it done in a few days!!

Yay!!! Can't wait!!

hey guys, how are you?

I'm doin alright! How are you doin?

Oh my god I'm so sorry. I've been having a shit go at it. For medical school they have one application and then each school sends you their own application, and like a month ago, just after I sent that message I started getting all the second applications. I'm about 15/30 down right now (so far) and am like seriously drowning in them. They all require about another 5+ essays and make you re-explain everything from the first application. I can't sleep and can't focus on writing that stuff now so I'm going to go cook out my chapter now. Again, I'm really sorry. My life is just kind of one cluster fuck right now lol. College sucks

Don't apologize! That sounds absolutely fucking insane! I wouldn't blame you if you needed longer either. ❤️

I AM SERIOUSLY SO SORRY. After a long semester of classes, applying and interviews (I got three and was accepted at two!) I FINALLY HAVE SOME TIME TO BREATHE. This next semester should be MUCH easier and give me plenty more time to do things I enjoy, such as writing! Again I apologize for the far-too-long wait and without further adue, here is my shortish chapter. Just let me know if there's anything to change, I'm trying to get back on the horse. I was about 1/2 done with it and had to start up again so I hope it's smooth sounding.

Acrimony

My mind kept racing and bringing me back to that moment a few weeks ago when I saved Porter when he saved that stupid creature. I just couldn’t get him out of my mind, no matter how hard I tried and it was starting to affect my sleeping patterns.

I couldn’t tell why I couldn’t stop thinking about it, just that I couldn’t and it was making me angry. The rage that filled me seemed completely irrational since I had no idea where it was coming from and yet I could feel myself sitting in the chair in the corner of my room shaking with anger.

I picked up my phone and called Shaan, thinking he would have something to help calm me down. I tapped my foot on the ground frustratingly waiting for him to answer the call.

“Hey it’s Shaan, leave your message-“ I threw the phone at the wall, shocking myself as I saw it shatter and land all over the floor in my room. This was just getting fucking ridiculous. I was getting angry at how angry I was.

Not quite knowing what to do with myself, I walked downstairs, grabbing my keys and heading over to Shaan’s. It was early in the morning and he should be ready for school soon. More importantly, I needed to talk to him.

Shaan was just stepping out his front door as I pulled into his driveway. “You’re early,” he commented and I growled in response.

“I can’t stop thinking about that stupid fucking kid,” I spat out.

“Porter?”

“No, fucking Johnny Depp, who do you think?”

Shaan shrugged and hopped in. “It’s got you pretty upset,” he commented, biting his lip.

I let out a sigh and began driving. His words didn’t require a response.

“It’s not about what happened…could it be about him?” He gasped, “Do you like Porter?!”

“What? No, why the fuck would you think that?” I questioned his sanity.

He smirked, “Come on Acrimony, don’t tell me you have been thinking alllll about him and haven’t considered that you like him?”

I said nothing.

“I am kind of hurt he’s the one you’re interested in.” Shaan pouted.

I couldn’t help glaring at him. “I’m not interested.”

“Kiss him,” the suggestion was a surprise to me.

“Why the fuck would I do that?”

“It’ll help prove whether or not you lurve him.” Shaan smirked at the angry features that overtook my face. “When you kiss someone, it’s like butterflies are fluttering around your insides and tickling and you feel so happy-“ I parked and slammed the door on Shaan’s rambling and got out of the car.

I figured what could kissing Porter hurt? It’s not like I hadn’t done the same exact thing with Shaan a thousand times before.

“No way am I missing this!” I heard the boy scream from somewhere behind me.

Ignoring the obnoxious cheerleader, I went directly towards where I’d seen Porter getting ready before class. Sure enough the boy was placing his bag in his locker. Someone was standing next to him and murmured something to him, pointing in my direction as I made a beeline for him.

Porter had just enough time to turn around before I pushed him back against the wall, shutting his locker in the process. He gasped in obvious surprise, drawing the attention of the entire hallway as I connected our lips.

It only took a moment before I could feel Porter begin to kiss me back, putting his hands in my hair in a not so innocent way I wouldn’t have expected from him. Well if he was going to do what he wanted, I was too. I slid my hands from his waist down to his thighs where I picked him up and ground him into the wall, Porter moaning a little in response. There was no way the entire hallway wasn’t watching in shock by the silence I heard all around us.

The kiss was like nothing I had ever felt before. It was exactly like Shaan had described, it felt like my stomach was on fire. I let Porter down and pulled back when we both needed a breath to stare into his eyes and I knew one thing to be true.

I was definitely gay for Porter.

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Okay posting now!

Something happened with Sawyer and Shaans pictures :(

Aww no:( I guess it was time to pick new ones says fate?

I think so :(

Okay! Here's who I'm thinking for a new Sawyer, any objections?

I love the guy but I don't like cigarettes, just a personal thing. But I do dig him:)

Here's the same guy without one! :) Sawyer 2.0

Alright guys! I kinda just cranked this out and I don't have time right now to proof read it but I will before posting it! I'm more than okay with changing anything or adding more if it feels too rushed so just let me know what you think!!!

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“Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear Lafayette! Happy birthday to you!” I woke up to see my parents practically hovering over me, balloons and breakfast in their hands as they sung off key to me. I couldn’t help but to smile as this was definitely a tradition of ours. It didn’t matter whose birthday it was, you got a song and breakfast in bed, but when I sat up I was mildly surprised to see my bed had presents on it.

“What? Guys! I’m not supposed to open anything until dinner!” I laugh and my parents just shook their heads and encouraged me to open them after I had eaten. The breakfast was delicious but holy shit my presents were definitely amazing. I hadn’t asked for anything, even though it was my eighteenth birthday. I didn’t really need anything specific. Everything I had was still in good condition, the only thing I could need were upgrades of those, and that’s what I got. New phone, new computer, new clothes, new shoes, and most of all I finally got my dream car. I was beyond stoked about that. Like squeals and screams and jumping up and down. You know, the whole nine yards.

But with that being said, after they left me I got dressed in my new clothes. I mean they practically bought me an entire outfit, new nearly skintight dark washed jeans, a deep V-neck shirt, a black zip up hoodie, and a grey denim vest to go on top. I felt like a million bucks again, and I really didn’t think anything could bring me down.

The ride to school was complete bliss. Even though I wanted to stay home and tinker with all my new toys, I wanted to drive more than anything and this was the perfect reason to. Once I was at school though I had this shallow feeling in my stomach that only grew the more I moved around and talked to people. I hated that I got there early, but I kind of wanted to show off and people left and right talked to me about the car and outfit… But it was so hard to focus. I tried to find Cael, but of course he wasn’t anywhere to be found. I tried calling him too, but he didn’t answer, in fact I think he actually ignored my call. He always got weird around my birthday but seriously? My eighteenth? It was kind of fucking important… But whatever, I couldn’t focus on him now. All I could focus on was the white hot feeling I had in my stomach, the feeling was so fucking familiar but I couldn’t put my finger on it!

But then like a ton of fucking bricks it hit me.

I was horny.

All I had to see was that Sawyer kid and my dick twitched. He was sleepy looking and unkempt and all I wanted to do was pull him into the bathroom and have him fuck my brains out.

I don’t even know where that thought came from! I’m still a… Well butt virgin, but more than anything I wanted that. Then my eyes landed on one of the wrestlers who had sweats on and I could see his entire package and I felt completely lightheaded just looking at it.

“Hey, you okay?” Sawyer asked, which completely surprised me, but I nodded.

“Yeah just horny.” I said, glancing up at him and the baffled look on his face didn’t help me at all. If anything his deer in the headlights look made him so much more appealing to me.

“Oh… Uh… Well happy birthday.” He said and then quickly left my side.

So here I was alone again, and I’ve had cravings before, I’ve felt the need for nicotine back when I smoked and I know what it’s like to jones for something… But I’ve never had sex, but my body was just aching to feel someone’s hands on my waist as they thrust themselves into me. I didn’t even know what to do with these feelings, but I couldn’t just stand here like an idiot anymore. So I wandered the halls in search of a perfect person. I needed someone easy and I needed someone now.

Then my eyes landed on him; Acrimony. He was perfect. Tall, strong, handsome, and I hear he was fucking amazing in bed. He’s who I wanted, and he was all alone by his locker so I quickly pushed through the crowd of kids and grabbed his hand. His body tensed and I could hear him mutter something angrily, but he followed as I pulled him into the janitors closet with me.

“Faye, what the-“ I stopped him by pulling his face down to mine, practically shoving my tongue into his mouth so he’d shut up and take a hint. It didn’t take long for his surprise to wear off and for him to follow my lead. I knew he was gay or some variation of that from seeing him kiss that Porter kid, it didn’t occur to me before I shoved my tongue in his mouth that they may have something going on… But I really didn’t care. His feelings really didn’t mean anything to me, and Acrimony was going along with it all so it couldn’t have really been that important. “Whoa whoa, Faye, slow down.” Acrimony laughed as he pulled away from me.

“Slow down? No, I don’t have time for that. I need you NOW.” I groaned and tugged at his belt loops. “Please?” I looked up at him and pouted, but the look he gave me told me more than I wanted it too. I wasn’t going to be getting any from him. “It’s my birthday…”

“I…” He paused, his eyes widening as my hand rubbed against his dick through his pants.

“Come on Acrimony. It’s my eighteenth birthday, and I’ve wanted this with you for god knows how long.” I practically moan into his ear, but all I can focus on is how hard he’s getting beneath my hand. “Please?”

“I-I… Shit.” He groaned as he bit his lip and pushed my hand away. “After school. Meet me at my house.” He said and though it wasn’t right now, it was more than I was actually really expecting.

“Promise? You’re not going to flake?” I asked, standing up on my tippy toes so I could nip at his neck a bit.

“No, I promise.” He smirked. His hands gripping onto my waist as he moved me away. “You better be there; you know where I live right?” I nodded, remembering a party he had thrown once last year. It wasn’t too far away from mine. “Good, I’ll see you there then.”

I nodded in response and he left me in the janitors closet alone, I heard him grumble something, but I waited a few seconds inside there to check my phone to see if Cael had said anything. Of course he just said something about being sick so I waited just sent him back a dirty picture I had stored on my phone for a rainy day just like this with a caption that said something like “Sorry you’re missing out on this today. Feel better soon.” With a winky face and a heart emoji to go along with it.

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School was terrible though, I barely made it through lunch without trying to pounce on Sawyer again, and those boys Edward and Zaiden were looking extra appealing to me today for some reason… Usually being horny passes right? Like it’s supposed to last for a bit and then you can move on from it right? I don’t remember honestly. All I could think about was getting over to Acrimony’s all day, or just saying fuck it and pulling someone else a little less… Inhibited, into the janitors closet for a round or two… But I managed to hold out, even though I felt like I was going through menopause, I definitely managed to hold out.

The car ride over though… That was hell. I seriously felt weak and my hands were clammy, but luckily once I got there Acrimony’s car was out there and it took everything I had in me not to actually run up to his door.

I pounded a couple of times, and soon enough the door flung open and Acrimony greeted me with an irritated “What!?” that instantly turned into a more intrigued smirk.

“I was starting to think you weren’t going to show.” He said as he moved aside to let me in.

“Why would I miss this?” I asked, rubbing my hands together to try to hide how nervous I was. My heart was racing and I felt like I was walking through a tunnel, but I was still on my feet so I think that was a good sign. I walked further into his home, looking around at how quaint it was. It felt a lot cozier than my home, but my mind quickly stopped looking at everything once I felt a pair of hands on my hips.

“Not sure.” He said, his voice so… Calm? It was hard to associate that word with him, but it actually was. I mean I hardly even knew this guy, I just talked to him occasionally and saw his random explosions, but… This seemed uncharacteristic. Actually before he kissed Porter I didn’t even think he was gay, maybe I just need to stop making assumptions of people… But now that that thought was in my brain, I don’t think I’d be able to get it out of my head.

“See, no reason to miss it.” I chuckled and looked up at him as best as I could since he was behind me. “But hey, did you just come out of the closet or something? I didn’t think you were gay before that scene in the hall with Porter.”

“Can we not talk about that right now?” He asked, and that just intrigued me more. I didn’t say anything else, in fact I just shrugged and was on my way to nodding in acceptance but he groaned. “Okay look Faye, I wasn’t. I still don’t think I am, but kissing him made me feel something and when you pulled me into the closet… Well I didn’t feel the same thing but I figured I could try out sex with a guy on you and-“ He paused and looked at me as if I had all the answers, but I was just as confused by this random life diatribe as he clearly was about his sexuality. “See if I like it?”

“Okay cool.” I said, taking off my coat and motioning for him to lead the way.

“Cool?” He chuckled and cocked his head to the side. “You don’t mind me just… Using you?”

“Not at all.” I say as I wonder the halls to see if I can find his room myself since he clearly wasn’t taking the hint. “As long as you don’t mind me using you either.”

“Are you trying to make that lap dog of yours jealous?”

“Not in the slightest, I just heard you’re phenomenal in bed and I wanted my first time to be mind blowing so here we are.” I glanced back at him to see he had that same weird look on his face so I sighed, putting two and two together almost immediately. “You’re a virgin?” He nodded and I wanted to groan but it was actually kind of cute, so instead of making him feel like shit for this whole ordeal, I walked back over to him and pulled him down a bit to my level. “Alright, well it’ll be a learning experience for us both then.” He smirked slightly before connecting our lips and things got messy quickly.

I didn’t know what his parental situation was like, but our clothes littered the hallway and we may have left the door open, but once our bodies hit the bed it was all over from there. My body just melted with his, but then everything stopped once it came time to put a condom on.

“Oh Jesus fuck, don’t tell me you don’t know how to at least put one of those on.” I groaned, sitting up as he fumbled with it. He stopped and looked at me, an intense look swirling around in his eyes that looked pretty volatile.

“Of course I know how to put one of these on. The side just ripped weird.” He all but spat, but I wasn’t in the mood to wait so I snatched it from his hands and tore it open with my teeth. He seemed pretty on edge as I pushed him onto his back as I pulled the rubber out, clearly his mind wasn’t completely here with us right now. “No fucking way am I going to let you-“

“Shut up Acrimony.” I laughed, taking his dick in my hand before rolling the condom down around his shaft. “I’m putting it on you, chill out.” His eyes narrowed a bit, but he didn’t budge much and seemed to be completely fine once I climbed on top of him.

Now I’ve read up on sex and watched a lot of porn and the reoccurring theme for virgins was the bit of foreplay it took to get virgins, especially gay males, ready for sex. I’ve experimented on myself with my fingers and such and it was definitely not a pleasant feeling at first. I don’t think Acrimony knew about all that much about the purpose behind foreplay though, or he just didn’t care because there was no easing or slowness to how he pushed himself into me, and I inhaled sharply expecting to feel some immense pain or at least a minor discomfort, but… There wasn’t any of that. In fact, my body just seemed to melt with his, and the noise that slipped from his lips as he pushed in was near divine.

“Fuck you’re tight.” He groaned and again that baffled me. I should be feeling at least some kind of pain but my entire body just felt tingly.

“Thanks.” I chuckled and mimicked the movements I’ve seen played out on my computer screen as I tried to shut Acrimony up with my lips again.

He lasted quite a while though, which I was beyond grateful for. I thought that maybe as a virgin this would be quick and I’d be the one left with a boner and no source of recourse but he started slamming into me close to the end and it was more than enough to send me over the edge with him.

We laid there panting for a bit, just staring at the ceiling and the longer the silence hung between us, the more uncomfortable I felt so I started to get up so I could collect my scattered clothing and get the fuck out of here.

“Well thank you for that.” I laughed, scooting towards the end of his bed where my boxer briefs were. “Even if the rumors were all made up, you lived-“ I felt his hand wrap around my arm so I glanced back at him.

“You don’t have to go already, do you?” He asked, a playful smirk dancing across his face as he gently started tugging me back to him. “I don’t think I’m anywhere near finished with you.”

And that was all I needed to hear to convince me to stay, at least for a little bit longer.