lost in empty pillow talk again

[ So I just wanted to let you know that I'm sorry I didn't start this sooner! But I was so tried that I was out as soon as I turned my laptop off and idk even know why I was so tried like all day yesterday but I was. Also I don't think you can change the description thing, but well I don't think it's even a big deal. I mean we know it's not an ATL roleplay plus it's closed so we're not gonna have other people trying to post in here so I think it'll be okay ]

Riley smiled at her boyfriend, even though he wasn't physically there she could at least see him through her phone. "Cal you need to sleep." She told him gently, even though she knew that wasn't really helpful. She was still worried about him, yea she didn't really sleep nearly as well as she did when he was home and lying next to her but there was so much stuff he had to get done, and so many more people he'd be disappointing than her if he wasn't on his a-game. And she hated that, she hated all the pressure being in the band put on him but she supported him because she knew it was what he wanted. He wanted to be a part of the band and she supported that. "I mean 'innit like 2 am where you are?"

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Luke was to say the least still pretty pissed off that Clarke had honestly decided to wait until he was leaving for tour to break up with him, but in a way he got it. Sure he hadn't wanted to end things with her, and he would've been more than willing to work on things. He'd do whatever he had to really because he loved her, but sometimes things didn't really work out the way he wanted. And he was kind of glad that they had left for tour so soon after the break up now because it gave him time away from her to think things through. What he hated though was that he found himself thinking about her, and them, and everything he wanted to say to her at 2 am when he should be asleep. Because they had a big day ahead of them, and well he needed to be awake and refreshed, sometimes it was harder to sleep though thanks to all his thoughts.

[ I would also like to apologize if this start sucks. I wasn't entirely sure where to start so I just kind of went with it. ]

@ Hemmings.

[ thank you for making me feel better, haha, I've been freaking out since I accidentially put atl. ;-; I was thinking of them because of the song, haha. I was like woooow, I need to sleep. Also I'm in love with my gif because Blake Lively is absolutely gorgeous, I am so in love with her. ]

Calum ran a hand through his messy bed-head, nodding his head lazily. "Yeah, it's pretty late here." He shrugged, glancing over at the clock that was on the wall. It was 2 in the morning as she had guessed, and he knew that he should probably get to sleep. But it was like his heart was controlling his body, telling him to stay up when his mind was screaming at him to sleep. The tour was almost over but not quite, so he had to settle for skyping whenever he could and talks on the phone. It was hard, hell yeah it was, but Calum wouldn't trade any of this for anything in the world. That's why his heart went out to Clarke and Luke. Clarke was just under so much pressure from the media and their hardcore fans, he kind of understood in a way. And yeah, the distance was hard but doesn't it make the heart grow fonder? "Buuut, I wanna talk to you," he said in a sleepy voice, nuzzling his head into the soft pillow. "How was your day?" He asked.

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Clarke was miserable, to the say the least. As if finding out she was pregnant with her exes baby not too long after breaking up with him wasn't bad enough, there was this tweet going around that is now sparking pregnancy rumors about her, and of course the bitch tagged the boys in the post. Then again, they weren't really rumors weren't they? Resting a hand on her stomach, she bit her lip gently and felt more tears pooling in the corners of her eyes, feeling them begin to fall. There was no way she could do this alone, could she? By now she was probably sure the boys had seen the tweet, which meant Luke had.. God, what would Luke say? Clarke didn't want their relationship to be over, she really didn't. But with the hardcore 5sos fans putting immense pressure on her and the distances sometimes, it just became too much for her to handle. Kudos to Riley and Calum because she couldn't do what they did/

[ no problem! It really isn't a big deal though and I totally have to agree on that one! Blake Lively is like one of the most gorgeous human beings ever! ]

"I know baby. I wanna talk to you too, because I miss my kiwi. You really need to sleep though." Riley told him wishing that he was there with her, or that she was there with him, she just wished they were together in the same country again. It wouldn't be much longer though until then. "It was long and a little tiring, but I'm so much closer to being done with school then moving onto bigger and better things than working in a diner. Plus between Spencer, myself, and Piper we've saved up enough money that when we graduate we'll be able to buy this building we've been looking into and start working on our restaurant. It's so exciting. I can't wait for you to get home." She told him knowing everything would be okay when he was home. She'd feel better, they'd both sleep better, she could stop complaining about how much she missed him, everything would just be okay again.

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If Luke were being honest then he'd tell anyone that he kind of hated twitter. And it he hadn't always hated it, really at first he'd like it a lot. He liked the concept of fitting everything you wanted to say into 140 characters or less. He liked it a lot more than facebook, and he liked that it was a lot easier to get people to jump aboard things because just a hashtag to get things trending and so many great things were brought about thanks to twitter. But here lately he'd kind of hated it. Because he was seeing a side of it that wasn't so amazing, the side where it gave anyone with a twitter access to anyone else with a twitter. Which meant that everyone who had a twitter could tweet him or worse, Clarke, and say awful things. And they did. He really hated that too because Clarke didn't deserve the shit the fans put her through. It was already hard enough with the whole long distance thing and then the fans had to make it worse and it just sucked. But well Luke couldn't help himself from pulling out his phone and checking his twitter, figuring that maybe if he looked at some tweets or did something to take his mind off Clarke that he'd be able to fall asleep. But really all that did was make things worse.

@ Hemmings.

[ yes, ugh. Her and Ryan's baby is too cute! I was so happy to find out she was a mother, she looked absolutely stunning pregnant! ]

A lazy smile drifted onto his features as he heard her talk about her passion and dream, opening a diner. From the time he could remember Riley had always talked about running a restaurant, it had always been something she was passionate about and when she talked about it her eyes light up and she had this crazy smile on her face. But, it was adorable how excited she got. "I can't wait to be home, I miss having someone to cuddle with," he said sadly. "Ashton, Luke and Michael just aren't cutting it anymore," he teased with a small laugh, feeling a pang in his chest. Being on tour was both the best and worst thing in the world because he got to do the one thing he loved in life, which was have the ability to share the music they made with the world. But, it also sucked because that meant he had to leave Riley all alone and he missed having her to cuddle up to at night. "So, have you been keeping up on the twitter-verse lately? People still aren't leaving that poor girl Clarke alone, after.. yeah." He shook his head.

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Clarke had her thumb hovering over Luke's number in her phone, oh so badly wanting to press the green button. Was he even awake? Clarke didn't want to wake him up if he was, knowing how agitated he got if he was woken up too early in the morning without a damn good reason. Though, she was sure if she told Luke the truth he would understand why she called him that late at night. Well and he would most likely be mad about it because she found out she was almost four months pregnant a couple days ago, she should have told him then but didn't want to bother him with her problems. Then again, weren't they his too? Sniffling lightly, she flopped back on her bed with her hand pressed to her stomach, chewing on her lower lip as she thought about what to do .

"This is why I have Max. He cuddles with me when you're not home." Riley told him turning over to grab the dog that was just laying behind her so he could see Calum on her phone too. "Isn't that right boy." She cooed to the dog who just curled back into his little ball in front of her. "He's sleepy. So he doesn't want anything to do with me, but that doesn't make him any less of a cuddle companion." She said laying her head back on her pillow and softly petting the dog glad that at least one of them was getting some sleep. She did miss having Calum to cuddle up to. Honestly it felt normal when Calum was laying next to her keeping her warm, and Max was just laying at the foot of the bed in his little ball. Because well even though she'd bought him a dog bed he didn't use it, the little thing would rather be in the bed with her than in a bed by himself. It was totally crazy. "Yea, and I'm really glad that I have an account I'm able to hide from your fans. And I mean I hate doing that and hate that I have to do that, but honestly it's better that way." She said wishing it didn't have to be like that, but well Riley knew if she actually wanted to have a twitter she could use to talk to her friends and just be herself on without being harassed she'd have to make sure to keep it secret so the only people she'd told that it was her were people she knew wouldn't leak it. "It sucks that they're still being so mean to her though. I was actually thinking of going to see her tomorrow just to see how she was doing."

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Luke had turned his phone off after he'd read the millionth tweet about Clarke carrying his baby. He didn't know how all this shit had gotten started, or even if it was true or not, but he honestly couldn't deal with this right now. Yea he wanted to know, yea if it was more than just rumors and she was having his kid he'd also like to know, but well he wanted her to be the one to tell him or confirm it on her own. He didn't want to have to force it out of her, because that just wasn't right. Either way though right now was not the time to find out. There was so much shit he was already dealing with and they had the rest of the tour to deal with, and just why was this happening? He didn't get it. What he was hoping though was that he could sleep and wake up get on with his day and talk to her tomorrow. And telling himself that he was going to talk to her the following day wasn't helpful in easing his mind too much, but it was enough for him to finally be able to sleep. He knew it wasn't going to be some amazing sleep where he felt great when he woke up, because well honestly he'd probably still be tired when he woke up, but at least he'd be getting a little bit of sleep.

@ Hemmings.

Calum smiled when he saw Max on the screen, as that dog had become a huge part of his life as well as she had. "Max you are one spoiled and lucky dog. Make sure you take care of her, boy." He cooed, chuckling as he just curled up in a little ball and go to sleep, obviously not wanting anything to do with Riley. Was it bad to be jealous of a damn animal? Probably, but it just wasn't fair. He got to be there and Calum was away for months at a time, but it was part of the job. Being part of a band was something he loved doing, being able to create music and reach out to his fans. "We're heading home, but I should probably sleep or else when we finally see each other I won't be up for doing much." He said with a small laugh, rubbing his eyes. But Calum felt like he wasn't alone, because he was pretty sure Luke was at least the only other one that was awake at this ungodly hour.

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[[ Honestly I'm drawing a blank for Clarke right now. ;-; perhaps we can skip to the boy's return home? ]]

[ That sounds like a plan to me ]

Riley laughed while she rubbed Max's head. "You really should get some sleep babe. I wouldn't mind if we spent the first few days you were home sleeping though." She told him knowing it might not've been the ideal way either of them really wanted to spend their first days back together or anything, but well at least she knew they'd both actually be getting sleep. They'd also be able to cuddle, and well she kind of really missed cuddling with him. When Calum was home it just made things easier. She didn't have to worry about him as much and that alone put her mind at ease. "I'll see you when you get home though. Love you."

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Luke had tossed and turned for who knew how much longer before he'd finally found himself dosing off. Partly thanks to be so damn tried from all the lack of sleep more than likely, and also because he'd finally put in his headphones and started to play relaxing music that'd always helped him sleep when he was younger. And he was thankful that he had finally fallen asleep and that his dreams weren't filled with Clarke. The last thing he really needed was to be haunted by her in his dreams too. He was already afraid of what might happen when they saw one another again when he got home from the tour, so dreaming about something other than her was a good thing.

@ Hemmings.

Not too long later, Calum was finishing up packing the rest of his clothes that he had left to pack away, excited to be home. His heart was beating heavily in his chest at the thought of returning to Riley, a slow smile appearing on his lips. It had been a little over two months since he had seen her and it had been the longest two months of his life. Though they had texted, called, and skyped each other whenever they could it just was not enough for Calum. He wanted to lay next to her and hear her shallow breathing while she sleeped, watch her chest rise and fall with every breath she took. Was that kind of creepy? Maybe, but you never realized how much you missed the little things like that until you're not there to experience them. And as much as Calum loved the boys they just weren't the same as Riley.

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Clarke's fingers trembled as her fingers hovered over the keyboard to her phone, chewing on her lower lip. She was contemplating sending him a text message, but would that even be worth anything? And who said he even wanted to talk to her anyway, not after the stunt she pulled. Swallowing thickly, she decided to press 'send' on the phone to Luke, asking him if he'd come over so they could talk for a few minutes. But, she would understood if he didn't want to talk to her, not after what she did. Breaking up with him right before he left for tour had been a bitch move, but she had thought it was for the best. So maybe he'd forget about her and move on.. but then this happened and she honestly had no clue what she was going to do if Luke wouldn't be there.

Riley couldn't have been happier that Calum was finally going to be home. She'd honestly missed him so much over the last two months, and she didn't plan on wasting any time she had with him while he was home. Honestly Riley was going to take full advantage of Calum being home and do as much as possible with him. She would honestly hang around him until he got sick of her, if that was possible. And she wasn't normally the clingy type who just had to be with their boyfriend or whatever 24/7, but given she hadn't seen him in person in two months, and she knew before they knew it he'd have to leave for another tour most likely and they wouldn't see one another again for who knew how long, she was going to cling to him 24/7. She was just going to take it all in, and spend time with her boyfriend.

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If Luke were being 100% honest with himself he'd say he was shocked when he got a text from Clarke. Because honestly she was the last person he'd expected to text him, though given she'd been the one to break up with him right before he left for tour it made sense she wouldn't text him. He'd thought it was pretty clear with the break up and all that she didn't want to be with him, or have anything to do with him. Which was insane because he loved her, he wanted to be with her, and he'd just assumed she'd felt the same. Which was also why the break up had kind of been unexpected. Yea he knew she'd been going through a lot, and his fans were rude and didn't make things easier for her. But he hadn't expected her to break up with him. That wasn't even the point here though. She'd asked him to meet her, and honestly there were some things he needed answers to, so he replied agreeing he'd meet her when he got home.